Everything is too much

[imnotnervous]

okay, so I don't have the best relationship with one of my parents, I get constant verbal abuse and sometimes physical and when my parents argue it gets blamed on me. i also suffer from anxiety so that doesn't help. now to the point, when things are really bad at home i find it really hard to focus so i have this one spot on my are that i scratch until it hurts or bleeds and it helps me breathe and refocus. I've talked to some people about this before and the word 'self-harm' comes up. Is what I'm doing really that bad? sometimes it helps me feel again because some days i feel little to nothing