Got thinking....

[CanuckAnon]

I am out with a friend but currently st doctors office waiting for nerve block. This friend knows me pretty good and we were catching up about well my withdrawal, state of relationship etc...

I have always valued this persons opinion and trusted that they would give it to me straight.

It seems with them playing devils advocate it has made my insecurities go wild... could be that I’m in pain or is there some truth to what they are saying that I’m not facing reality. I hate not being sure of my thinking. I do not think they would have an ulterior motive for saying that my relationship sounds like it’s an open relationship bcuz he wants his freedom to do as he pleases with whomever he pleases. This thought has fed my insecurities red bull.... wonderful considering it was a good day despite the pain....

I’m counter attacking the negative but wonder if my insecurities are really reality I’m in denial about....

Needed to get that out so that it’s not rattling around in my brain, driving me crazy or to blurt crap out... at least my blood pressure is normalish. Time will only tell... no point getting freaked out.... ok rant done.

Something for gratitude book : soon will have nerve block so afternoon pain will be reduced by 70% at least.... need to get my positive mindset back from this morning!

[Hidden]

My disability consists of chronic pain, I have attended Pain Clinic and have had explanations on pain and the strength associated with it. Consider the pain in numbers from 1, that is little pain to 10 where the pain is severe and uncontrollable. The numbers 2-9 are the varying levels of pain, between 2-9.

Pain is a very personal problem people associate pain different to a person in the next bed in Hospital, so what may be a level 5 for on will feel possibly pain at level 7. This will help your Doctor relate to the level of pain you suffer.

One way of controlling Chronic Pain is a TENS Machine, Pain Pen etc. For toning up muscle you can use an EMF machine. Sometimes the Tens machine will include EMF settings. All of above can be purchased in a chemist or your Pain Doctor may have a recommended supplier. I used to use a machine from BODY CLOCK, UK.

BOB

[CanuckAnon in reply to Hidden]

I’m well aware of pain scale. I have a high tolerance for pain due to living with it daily. I can do basically everything at a 3-5 I’m living vs existing. I start only doing important stuff at 6-7 then nothing 8-10. Right now after nerve block I’m at about a 3... I can ignore this pain. I do not use narcotics or opioids as they do not work on my nerve pain, CBD does work and provides relief. I’m never pain free but the relief I do get from nerve blocks and CBD do allow me to live while attempting to deal with anxiety and such associated with it.

[Hidden in reply to CanuckAnon]

I suffer extensive Chronic Pain, I have been a sufferer now for over thirty years and the main problem I now understand is the sensitized pain concern and that is something we need to control. Personally now I have the tools and expectations of controlling pain and as I get older the older we get we become addicted to the fact we have pain as we look out for that sensation, because the longer we take medications the more problems we have.

My main problem now is my neck my spine discs are all damaged, so I am now reducing drugs and taking B12 to reduce and assist in joint repair. My body cannot produce B12 so now I am beginning to feel a great deal better, my injections are given every twelve weeks.

Why do you need the nerve blocks, what has caused your concerns

BOB

[CanuckAnon in reply to Hidden]

My neck was damaged at work. I have had daily chronic migraines since 5 years now. They are the only thing beyond my prescribed whacky tabacky that works.... they allow me to live a life instead of existing some days not even able to get up...

[CanuckAnon in reply to Hidden]

ThAnks for idea of EMF... will talk to pain specialist next week.

[CanuckAnon]

I did Saturday night already... this could have been insecurities gone rampant as I was not managing well the emotional crap as I was trying to get to appt to get pain reduced.

I will bring this up next time we talk though... so it does not keep rattling around in my head and send my insecurities haywire...

Thanks buddy.... 😊 in a much better place now.. I’m gonna take it as it comes. Not get overwhelmed about whole picture.

[courageovercomfort]

“Fed my insecurities Red Bull”I just had to laugh. I totally get this!!! 🙋🏻‍♀️