Negative thinking

[Horselover54]

I had an issue with a Facebook friend over the weekend which ended up with her blocking me over a misunderstanding. This is not a close friend or even someone I ever see, however, I can’t stop thinking about & I feel very down & like there’s something wrong with me. I feel like nobody likes me, or if they do, it’s only a matter of time until they don’t. This is a repeating theme in my life & although I know logically it’s not true, I can’t get the rock out of my stomach. Everytime I catch myself being happy, I tell myself I don’t deserve it. I know this is bad, but I can’t reset my thinking

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Do you have a trusted friend that is brave enough to be honest with you if you asked them for an evaluation of your behavior? It’s kind of like “ how do you tell someone you have bad breath”, lol. I have blocked people on my fb page because they steal my joy. If someone is always complaining , using offensive language, or obsessed with certain subjects( like politics) I may block them because their comments darken my day. It’s not that they are bad people. I blocked my own grandaughter once as she kept using the f bomb and I didnt want that on my page. You deserve to b happy. If you are not your own best friend, how can anyone else get close? A good friend loves, forgives and gives second chances. Be that to yourself.

[Konagirl01]

I am so sorry you are feeling this way. I totally understand and You DO deserve happiness and love. Social media is a blessing and a curse (for me at least). There is so much negativity and misunderstandings can easily occur. I find that taking breaks (2 weeks or more) from FB has helped me a lot. I also say daily affirmations to try to get rid of my negative thought process. You are lovable, important and you deserve to feel good. Big hugs ❤️

[hypercat54]

Yes I understand as I do this too. Sometimes it doesn't bother me but other times it helps lead to a downward spiral. I find what helps me is coming online like you have and talking about it. I always get some lovely replies which go a long way to make me feel a little better. x

[Horselover54]

Thank you all so much for your uplifting words. It does help to have support. I am constantly amazed at how many people are actually out there like me. I never met any until I went in the hospital. It so happens that this fb situation occurred within a week of discontinuing Remeron, so I don’t know if it’s part of the withdrawal process or if this just proves that I need the drug. I did like how I felt on it & got great sleep, but I did not like the weight gain at all. Plus I just don’t like being on something long term especially if it causes physical dependency

[Rachel2535]

Social media tends to be my Achilles heal. I got off most of it because it changed the way I thought of myself and hurt me so bad. I have learned though that people feel like they can be who they are not online, thinking they have no consequences. But words hurt. You can not let someone’s hurt, hurt you. See yourself through kind, loving good eyes. I know that was the only way I can live my life is seeing myself through Gods eyes. Praying for you. -Rachel

[Horselover54]

Thanks Rachel. I did complete a self-compassion DBT course, but it’s hard to change the internal dialogue of a lifetime