Suicidal Thoughts and Treatment

[LostandAlone222]

Is there anyone else who deals with chronic suicidal thoughts and feelings? I've had large episodes of being suicidal. I don't really have any solutions or answers except for the hospital when I start to form plans.

[skidrew]

All I know is that I have hope that things will change. I just tell myself hang on, life will be awesome again and I’ll do my best never to let myself slip again. I love summer and the beach! Soon!

[Rick1on1]

At times like this it is important to look for life lines/anchors that make you realise that suicide means giving up everything that you have done and that you are still going to do.

Are you ready to give up on your potential?

[YellowTurtle in reply to Rick1on1]

What if you don't think you have any potential?

[Rick1on1 in reply to YellowTurtle]

Being alive means having potential - the difficult part is finding the courage to take that first step towards it.

What did you dream for yourself when you were younger?

[photobeats]

I deal with chronic suicidal thoughts daily as well. All I have in my "toolbox" is to put myself on my toes so to speak. Like tonight, I am on a poetry kick and writing loads of poems, last night was watching a new TV show that I had never heard of. I do write a lot and it keeps that stuff at bay as much as it can. I can't follow the same routine every night. So I guess, I say, those are my solutions. I can't really talk to any family or friends about this stuff because they don't and refuse to understand it. Best of luck to you.

[YellowTurtle]

I've come to realize that this isn't a phase or temporary. I like that you used the word chronic. I never thought of it that way. More recently I'm scared that I'll actually do something about it. I never thought I could, never thought I'd be brave enough and then continue beating myself up like saying I'm not enough capable of killing myself let alone amounting to anything ever. It makes me sad and I know deep down i don't want to. But it doesn't feel like there are any other options. The voices in my head and the evil I have been feeding with negative thoughts just feels too powerful, too part of me to ever go away.