Recently went thru 3 weeks of hospitalizations related to depression and suicidal thoughts/actions. Aware I was losing the mental war to the pervasive suicidal thoughts, I checked myself into a behavioral health hospital. While there I was relieved of the stress to keep myself safe - which helped. But I was released before I felt able to stay safe on my own. I promptly acted upon a suicide plan, which landed me in the ER and several days of unconsciousness in the hospital. I awoke covered with scratches and bruises and a concussion. No idea what had really happened to me. After a social worker visited to explain I would be placed on a 72 hour hold, I promptly dressed and walked out of the hospital. If 6 days in a good psyche hospital didn’t help, the county lock up would only make matters worse.
In the meantime I’d been off all meds so chose to stay off - suicidal thoughts were side effects of several. It’s been a week since I walk ed out of the hospital and feel clearer minded than I have in many months or even years. No longer battling thoughts of harming myself! I’m convinced the meds were a major factor in this battle and sure wish one of my docs had considered this possibility.
Has anyone else found the meds (both antidepressants and pain meds) contributed to suicidal thoughts and actions?