Suicidal thoughts.....

[lovedogs51511]

I always have suicidal thoughts when in my severe depression. Its truly a Hell nobody wants to go thru!!!! I'm only happy everyday due to using select cbd!!! I don't take antidepressants anymore cause of using cbd. This stuff I'm using is expensive but it keeps me really happy cause when I don't take it I'm balling my eyes out trying to figure out how to end my life!!! I'm terrified of death so that's the only reason I'm here. I've had a gun in my mouth etc. So this select cbd lavender tincture is 60 bucks but I'm just saying if your suicidal please save your life and try this stuff!!!!! Thanks!!! Hope your all having a great day😄😄😊😊😀😀😀

[Celtic27]

Hi love dogs not seen you on here for a while! The cbd I've heard a lot about it but never tried it is there any side effects? Are you keeping well other wise? Can I say please don't think about suicide I for one would miss you take care david 🙏

[lovedogs51511 in reply to Celtic27]

Oh your the sweetest!!!! No side effects at all. Just happiness!!!😄😄 Lol. I'm good thanks for asking. How you been?? Hope your doing good!!! Your such a dear!! I'm suicidal daily when in depression. Its been 40 years of suicidal thoughts. If not terrified about death I'd be long gone 30 years ago!!! And saved my life!! HUGS David😀😀

[Celtic27 in reply to lovedogs51511]

Your a good person and I hope something good will happen to you soon! I hadn't realised that you have had depression for 40 years are you taking each day as they come! If you need a chat sometime just message me take care 👍👍

[lovedogs51511 in reply to Celtic27]

Oh that's a wonderful thing to say thank you!!! I've always drank and took drugs to deal with the pain. 25 years of drunkeness!! Now sober over 7 years I'm suffering anxiety that's keeping me from going outside and feeling sure enough that I can go to work. I'm a mess with this anxiety. Its extremely crippling now. Before I had major confidence cause of being loaded. Now I'm terrified of life. Not sure what to do. Totally lost!!! The severe depression with suicidal thoughts has been all I know. Sucks but that's how its been. Sorry for going on and on!! Lol. Thanks for talking with me!!

[Celtic27 in reply to lovedogs51511]

Hi there its good that you open up a lot of people tend to regress and live in the past! Have you asked if there was anything you good go to for councilling it might help david

[lovedogs51511 in reply to Celtic27]

Hiya I hate therapists. Iv e tried multiple ones. Same thing as usual, they just say how does that make you feel and times up. Yea that doesn't help LOL!!! Iv e been down that road too many times already. Costs too much to be told nonsense cause I don't have two pennies to rub together. But it sure would help to win that billion bucks off of mega millions😄😄😄 Thanks for your help David your so kind hearted!!!