Constant suicidal thoughts

[Jazmynk97]

How do I cope with this I have a mood disorder and I have had depression/manic and normal phases I’ve only had one extreme depression episode before to the point of not being able to bathe/get out of bed but that was at a very hard time in my life and didn’t last more than a year before I was back to a more “normal” state but recently I’ve been getting depressed again as well as dealing with chronic pain and my psychical illness has gotten 10x worse this year so I am constantly having suicidal thoughts. I brought it up to my significant other and friend literally saying “I feel like killing myself” & they both just kind of ignore it and say don’t say that not sure if it just makes them uncomfortable.

[Sunshine425]

💔 Im so sorry your going through a rough time. Dont give up hope. Maybe the answers to help your physical pain is around the corner. I have been in very bad depressive states. Its exhausting and hope isnt easy to hold on too. I try to find things to do to distract myself. I learned everything I could about learning to cope in healthy ways. There are simple things like watching tv or craft projects I do when I feel like shutting the world out on really bad days. For me sometimes I need to force myself to have a "me" day.

As far as people not acting like they care. I dont know... sometimes people just dont know what to say or what they can do to help us. The words "dont say that" is all they know what to say. You are normal though. Were all a little crazy...all a little sad at times too. Were all human walking along in life feeling unsatisfied a lot of the time. But then the sun comes again tomorrow and hope is what gets us out of bed each day. One day at a time☀️

[Dolphin14]

You are going through a lot right now. I'm sorry it's all building up.

When you were depressed before what did you do to help yourself? Are you using the same treatment plan and coping skills now? Are they just not working anymore?

Having physical health issues on top of depression is a lot to deal with.

Do you have an MD involved? Therapy? Meds? How physically active are you able to be with your level of pain?

People around us who have never suffered don't know how to respond when we say certain things. This is a place to come to share your feelings with people who understand.

If you feel you are not safe, please call for help.

I hope things turn around for you soon.

[Chanshan]

never tell others what you feel who don't understand what we go through mentally. Only we can understand how painful it is. I have experienced my wife making jokes about my depression. So don't share and try to suffer alone. That is what I learnt.

[sophia03 in reply to Chanshan]

im sorry...but your right they dont understand what we really feel even my husband he doesnt even know... when his not home i cried a lot..even at bed time when i saw him peacefully sleeping i cried..it feels like im different person and no one can ever understand..

[nicetry]

I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I am feeling the same way now — I have an autoimmune disease that’s slowly but steadily getting worse. I deal with physical pain everyday. ... if your SO isn’t supportive, try to find someone who is. Or at least someone who will listen. (That might mean paying a therapist) 💕 good luck

[lillyofthevalley37]

Fish oil capsules can really help , you can take up to 5 x 1000mg per day

Please note fish oil is not the same as fish liver oil ie cod liver oil

It's the omega 3 - I suggest you have a diet high in omega 3 to help you feel better

[nicetry in reply to lillyofthevalley37]

Fish oil for autoimmune disease or depression (or both?) Lol. I eat a lot of salmon, rich in omega 3, my favorite fish.

[lillyofthevalley37 in reply to nicetry]

Do you have an autoimmune disorder?

[nicetry in reply to lillyofthevalley37]

Yes, I have Sjögren’s syndrome with secondary myalgia, Raynaud’s and interstitial cystitis. AND depression! It’s awesome! 🙄

[lillyofthevalley37 in reply to nicetry]

Phenylalanine suppresses the immune system but I wouldn't like to recommend it if you are on medication?

Fish oil capsule s are good so are flaxseed oil capsules

Tyrosine is good for depression

Bicarbonate of soda might help cystitis

[nicetry in reply to lillyofthevalley37]

Thanks! I take a med called Elmiron for the cystitis that helps a lot, and for acute episodes I have an analgesic but it makes me nauseous. I’ve tried bicarbonate of soda but it doesn’t make much diff in my pain.

I’ve also heard about tyrosine. Wonder if I can take that with all my other meds? I’ll ask.

[NeuronerdDoaty]

I have lived with suicidal thoughts my entire life; even as a child. For me it seems just like a ‘step’ over. They are my escape hatch.

However, I also have thoughts of writing another book, robbing a bank, and I used to think daily of putting a pillow over my ex’s sleeping face. Haven’t done any of that either.

I let the thought run it’s course in my head.

Just because it’s a thought doesn’t mean you do it. Yesterday I wanted to throw food but what a mess so I didn’t. Don’t give it more power than it deserves.

Keep moving forward.

Doaty💛