Sad and hopeless

[Wrigleyville]

I don’t understand this. I woke up one day to go to work and when I stood up out of bed this strange sensation washed over me. It felt like warm water pouring over me down my body and through every limb, fingers, n toes. Then I went to the bathroom to puke. I’ve been sick with anxiety n depression ever since that morning over a year ago. How can it happen like that?

I’ve tried so many meds, TMS, ketamine infusions n nothing has helped. I don’t know what to do. I just want my life back!

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Well honestly that happened to me. I was working my ass off all for years and focused on work all the time. Waiting my turn for my partner to spend time with me but almost never could find time schedules match did that for years and years. Then one day my body manifested strange sensations like falling out of an airplane with no parachute. I felt cold which I never do and I was shaking uncontrollably. Panic and weakness in my all my muscles with vertigo from hell. I saw my doc/good friend and he sent me straight to psych appointment. I got treated from there on out and found my body was reacting to things I had been neglecting my emotions and needs. I thought I'd could just continue for ever being superman with no emotions, but apparently my body and spirit had other plans. So yeah I've gone through it and still am working on improve my human condition to better myself for a healthy way to approach life. Slowly I am getting a much needed improved life rather than the same fast paced unsustainable work life I did before.

I hope you find your way too, because you can and will.