Struggling and Hopeless

[sshawn]

I’ve suffered from depression and anxiety for over 20 years. Tried numerous combinations of medications, therapists, and have read numerous books on how to cope with my illness. To compound my struggles my wife of over 15 years told me she is no longer in love with me.

My heart is broken. I have a job that does not pay enough to support me being on my own and I know many will think go find a new job and start over. But jobs are the main source of my problems. Every job I’ve had have expatriated my anxiety and depression.

My support system consists of my dad who lives too far away to go see.

I’m trying to hold it together for my children. No child should have to see their parents suffer mentally. I don’t want to ruin there childhood. But I don’t believe in myself any longer or have the strength to turn my life around.

Any positive words that you can send my way would be greatly appreciated. I’m not asking for a miracle answer to my problems, just needed to get this off my chest.

Thank you for listening.

[10484517]

I hear you. I can relate to your situation. I'll pray for you & your family tonight.

[tamka38]

Every day may not be good, but there is something good in every day. ... and find the good and realize it's not so bad, and it is going to be ok.

You have to remember that the hard days are what make you stronger. The bad days make you realize what a good day is. If you never had any bad days, you would never have that sense of accomplishment!

God is talking to you. you just have to listen closely. Don't let your tears become louder than his voice. Life beats us up enough. Don't beat yourself up!"

Only I can change my life. Change your life today. Smile in the mirror. Lighten up, just enjoy life, smile more, laugh more, and don't get so worked up about things.

'God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.

People may tell you they believe in you but they will never do it for you, you’re the only who is capable of holding your own hand in the journey of your life, people come and go but you will always have yourself, so you must find a way to believe in it and have unwavering faith

I believe in you and sending u a hug 🤗 and praying for u and your family. Make sure u doing what u can to better yourself because if you not good how u able to make someone else feel good or help anyone.

Take it easy u need a break too and is ok to be uncomfortable sometimes. And what’s going on is not your fault. Wishing u good luck and hope everything get better for u soon.

[sshawn in reply to tamka38]

Thank you for the words of wisdom and insight. I greatly appreciate it!

[tamka38 in reply to sshawn]

You’re welcome

[itakenaps]

I don’t think your children would think any less of you for expressing emotion when you are going through a hard time. In fact, I think it would be more damaging for them to see you not dealing with things, or dealing with them in an unhealthy way. Depending on their age it may even be a good idea to talk to them about it. Show them that it is normal to reach out for help if they need it. Break that stigma.

Don’t give up on therapy. It sucks but it takes a lot of crappy therapists before you find one you trust.

This community is part of your support system now. You are not alone, so hang in there.