Generally my depression is manageable and treatable and for the most part I’m doing okay taking my antidepressant medication and seeing my therapist on a regular basis.
I work for a community college as an Admin Asst. and thoroughly enjoy my job. I receive a lot of kudos from my close coworkers.
However there’s situations that can plunge me into a depression. For example a couple of weeks ago the college had a general assembly for the Administrative Staff. They gave out awards for the most outstanding workers. And as they were about to call up the next person to receive their award each receiver had a round of applause. My heart was pacing because I was sure I was going to be one of the receivers. But my name was never called. Only the @ss kissers won the awards. I don’t kiss @ss on the job. Nor do I ever care to. I find that behavior a dishonest turn off.
Anyway, after the assembly I was plunged into a depression that I had to ride out for about 3 days until it began to lift. But if I look at this from a positive perspective, that’s an example of a “trigger”... something that can set off a depression. And I have to avoid those. In the future I won’t be attending those award assemblies. Not out of resentment, but to protect my own well being.
When it comes to protecting myself from getting depressed I have to stay away from anything competitive. Board games, sports, or anything else competitive where there’s a winner and a loser depresses me. That for example is why I vastly avoid playing or watching competitions such the lottery; the Golden Globes; Academy Awards and so on.
Anyway, that’s some examples of avoiding triggers. There’s other depression triggers out there. I must remain vigilant to avoid them for my own well being. Thanks