Looking for support

[Priscilla_Rain]

New on here. Looking for ways to cope and get better. I have suffered from severe depression for atleast 4 years. I work , attend college, and have a son. I try hard to seem ok but it’s hard. I have a new job , moved into my own home recently, and just got a break from classes the pressing of all these elements in my life are mounting. The pressure to keep it all together. I have tried 2 different medications

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Hi Priscilla, I'm Kayla. Welcome to the site. I'm glad you decided to join us here. We're all very supportive of each other & this is an amazingly brave first step. I also suffer with severe depression, anxiety, & PTSD. It's a terrible disease & it can definitely hold us back from doing day to day things that most find easy to do. My heart goes out to you.

First things first, have you ever talked to a therapist? I have one & he's amazing. It really helps me better understand why I'm feeling this way & gives me amazing ideas on how to better deal with it as well as my panic attacks. I've been really into yoga & meditation. There's this app called calm that I highly recommend, but some of those cost. There are a few on there that are like 12 minutes that are free though. YouTube has some as well. I like to work out too & just listen to some music. I'm currently taking Lexapro & Trialozam for sleep, I'm unsure of the medications you're taking... but hopefully they help you. I would try tea or relaxing bubble baths too. They all help me. I also like to write in a journal everyday. Sorting out my feelings really helps me. I even daily post during things here, & it helps a lot because the people on this site have been through or are going through similar things. That's just some ideas that I have. I'm in no way a professional, but it's just things that have proven to calm me down a lot & make me feel better. We are all here for you & I hope you find peace in the days ahead. <3

[Priscilla_Rain in reply to Hidden]

Thank you for the suggestions, I use to workout a couple of years ago and it really helped I am trying to get back into it. I have seen a couple of different therapists and then a physiatrist but I feel like they aren’t listening to how I am feeling , sometimes I wake up and my nerves are so bad I can barley function by the time I get to work. It’s the worst feeling ever. The feeling of dread, which I know I shouldn’t feel like that. I need to find a good dr , I know it’s a sad excuse to say I work a lot ,

I just started a new job and they are short staffed and hint that there is not a lot of time right now to leave work early ,

[Hidden in reply to Priscilla_Rain]

I completely get it. Before I had my mental breakdown, I used to drive 30 minutes to work & not even be able to get out of the car. I had to call in & skip. It killed me. So at least you're trying. That's all you really can do. Take it one step at a time. You can get through this. <3 You're way ahead of me. I'm on medical leave until September & I'm already anxious thinking I can't make it. You got this, girl.

[Hidden in reply to Priscilla_Rain]

Do you drink coffee or other beverages with high amounts of caffeine and sugar in them in the morning? I only ask to bring up that depression and anxiety while originate in the brain; require the whole body to treat them successfully. You can’t just look at the mental health but also the physical health of your body and how you fuel it.

[Priscilla_Rain in reply to Hidden]

When I’m not in these ruts of depression, I’m usually pretty physically healthy. I have IBS so I don’t drink a lot of caffeine . 3-4 cups in a weeks time , usually after lunch at work.