I spend a lot of time trying to figure out why was I selected to go thru this fire of hell because that is what this feel like. It is so uncomfortable, so irritating, sooooo, I don't even know how to really explain this. While I appreciate that I am still alive, its rough. I have good days but it seems like when the bad days hit, it makes up for any good days I have. Then a lot of times I want to scream, I want to run but don't know where to run to & for what I just can't seem to escape this. I hate this, its like a nightmare that I can't wake up from. Somebody please wake me up. I am tire of going thru different things. I don't know what's real and what's not, I feel alone a lot of time. I have been experiencing the shakes, nausea, so afraid of dying, so tensed. WHYYYYYYYYYYY?
I'm not even sure if this post makes sense because I am all over the place. I just don't know what to do.