Idk why I'm like this 😭

[KBhi]

I think I need help. Like I need to talk to someone and figure out what's going on with me. I've been with the same guy for almost 4 years, we were living together until he had to move overseas for work, but ever since he's been there my worries are like a dark little cloud hanging over me almost always. We will be great and then argue, I get so caught up in the bad that just happened that I get stuck and think that this isn't going to work. I'm a crying mess half of time. I just get SO in my head and he even says it like I don't already know that. All of this is starting to push him away and I don't want that. Never will. But idk what to do or why I'm being like this. I almost feel the constant need for reassurance and it's driving him crazy, but I can't help it. I'm so sad and down a lot of time. He told me he will only ask me one time what's wrong and that if I don't answer him I can talk to someone else about it, that I'm pushing him away and that he loves me, but won't put up with it. But what he doesn't get is that I can't help it anymore, I'm stuck. I don't know what to do.

[bluebayou]

Hang in there! You're not alone. Does your boyfriend know you're feeling this worried?

[KBhi in reply to bluebayou]

Yes, he does. But he doesn't understand why I do because he always tells me that he feels the same as he always has and he reassures me a lot.

[KBhi in reply to bluebayou]

I just can't stop worrying. It's out of control.

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Hi it sounds like counselling would help you to understand yourself and what is happening. Your bf sounds supportive but he can't be there for you all the time, not can he sort out your issues with yourself. Get some help.

[Krud]

I feel your pain and am in a similar situation. I've been with my person for 11 years and we live together. They have had depression issues but we've always overcome them. Now she's vacationing in her own and wanting more personal space but reassures me she's 110% committed to us. It's really tough!