I’m sitting at work and I can feel that hopelessness/sadness feeling coming on! It feels like going down in an elevator or almost like falling in the pit of my stomach and chest.
I am working all of my coping tricks including posting this message.
I was supposed to start my counseling the 18th and I just got a call that she has to cancel any new patients because she will be moving out of state and didn’t learn about this until yesterday. If I want to schedule with someone else I would have to wait until the 1st week in January!!
I am trying to not let that push me over the edge but I am super disappointed with this! Plus I am missing my wife and kids so bad that it physically hurts!! Oh yes, I also have a meeting with my CEO at 12:30pm.
I am being tested to my absolute limit right now.
Just getting all of this written out is helping me calm down a little but I still feel this pressure on my chest that is accompanied with a menthol like feeling. I can’t decided if it feels warm or cold but it definitely has a temperature associated with it.
This disease is so sad!!!!!!