I've struggled with anxiety and depression off and on for as long as I can remember. I'm 46 now. I've tried anti depressants twice but couldn't tolerate the side effects - nausea, feeling spaced out etc. - so came off them within a few days. I've also got various phobias especially around feeling sick or dizzy (hence I feel sick and dizzy a lot) and general health anxiety. When I'm having a bad episode of feeling low, I just feel so physically ill. My IBS flares up, I can't get rid of colds, my energy is low and I can't sleep or eat properly. This morning I tried to go to work (I love my job although a long commute on public transport gets me down) but I had to turn round at the station and come home as I felt so ill I thought I'd pass out - my legs turned to jelly. Now I'm so disappointed with myself - again. I let people down at work and I'm no good to my family - my husband and I have drifted apart so much I cannot talk to him. I try to hold things together for the sake of my children, but it keeps gets harder..... I've tried therapy before but nothing seems to help long term. I'm exhausted and fed up with feeling like this. Just wanted to get that off my chest and see if anyone feels similar.