Anxiety makes me feel so ill

[SharinC]

I've struggled with anxiety and depression off and on for as long as I can remember. I'm 46 now. I've tried anti depressants twice but couldn't tolerate the side effects - nausea, feeling spaced out etc. - so came off them within a few days. I've also got various phobias especially around feeling sick or dizzy (hence I feel sick and dizzy a lot) and general health anxiety. When I'm having a bad episode of feeling low, I just feel so physically ill. My IBS flares up, I can't get rid of colds, my energy is low and I can't sleep or eat properly. This morning I tried to go to work (I love my job although a long commute on public transport gets me down) but I had to turn round at the station and come home as I felt so ill I thought I'd pass out - my legs turned to jelly. Now I'm so disappointed with myself - again. I let people down at work and I'm no good to my family - my husband and I have drifted apart so much I cannot talk to him. I try to hold things together for the sake of my children, but it keeps gets harder..... I've tried therapy before but nothing seems to help long term. I'm exhausted and fed up with feeling like this. Just wanted to get that off my chest and see if anyone feels similar.

[ellybelle03]

I'm sorry to hear of your on going struggle. I know for me, anxiety can be all consuming and it sounds like it's that way for you as well. I wish I had some great words of wisdom for you, but sadly I don't. I think you and I are at the same place right now. All I can tell you is you are not alone.

[SharinC in reply to ellybelle03]

Thank you. It means a lot to know I'm not the only one not coping very well. Hope we feel better soon.

[gogogirl in reply to ellybelle03]

No, you are not alone- right here with you.

[Tillymay]

I have days like this and feel very alone my partner doesn't understand this is an illness, so I don't talk to him about this, I try to pull myself together for the sake of the kids, but feel very useless, so I sort of understand where your coming from I'm waiting for a doctors appointment but like you don't want to take meds, but I have been told by lots of people here some meds aren't as bad as they use to be so I'm going to give them a try, I find colouring helps occupy my mind and relaxes me, also meditation when your in the bath helps give it ago and don't feel alone there are lots of understanding people here that help by just begin there also they are very good with advice and they care so when you need to sound off I'm sure someone will always be here take care

[SharinC in reply to Tillymay]

Thanks Tillymay. I really appreciate the advice. I'll have a think about these things. Thanks again for sharing. I'm new to here.

[Tillymay in reply to SharinC]

Your very welcome and even if you decide not to try these things, I'm still here if you ever need to just get things off you chest, take care and remember your not alone.

[raghav79]

Its sad but I am suffering from similar condition. My major concern is heart palpitation which makes me feel more anxious. My health is gradually deteriorating. I tried anti-depressants and herbal medicines too but nothing works.

I have little success with self therapy. Try to meditate and change your all negative perceptions to the positive.

Self positive talks, exercises and yoga might help you. I feel awful with medication so I stopped visiting doctors. I also suffer from IBS ( functional dyspepsia) could be result of the anxiety.

Hope this helps. you are not alone . Hope you will find what works on you soon.

thanks

[Eliza2 in reply to raghav79]

I too have the palpitations which make the anxiety worse. I had 2 heartblations and fear a 3rd if I keep going like this. Seems like there is always some physical problem and ongoing worrying. You are not alone. I too cannot take meds for depression and anxiety they all make me sick. Exercise and diet are the 2 things we can do for ourselves. Forcing myself everyday to do 30minutes exercise helps everything so I'm told. I push myself to the gym. I know each Day can be a struggle.

[tuffy33 in reply to Eliza2]

Prayer helps out a lot.

[KI-100]

I think being compassionate with ourselves is important. We all have bad days. There is a Japanese saying that goes something like this: It is OK to fall down 11 times so long as you get up 12.

[gogogirl in reply to KI-100]

I have a magnet that has a quote: Falling down is part of life. Getting back up is living. I hope that you have a good support system.

[tuffy33]

Be good to yourself, anxiety is tricky, I have been through this over and over. You will have your ups and downs in life. How you respond is the key.

[SaReeves1]

I understand. I suffer from anxiety and depression. I think I've been like this all my life and I'm now in mid-60's. I try to take each day as it comes, but on the days that it gets the best of me it drives my blood pressure up and I go into internal panic. In other words, I don't share it because there's no one to share with. I've found myself with no friends, no social outlets, and family members who are too busy with their own lives and children and live 2 hours away and when i do try to share they simply don't hear me. No empathy. I also deal with chronic pain (undiagnosed fibro and diagnosed Morton's Neuromas in my feet). I wish the good days outnumbered the bad! I just try to manage it all. The best I can. Yes, I'm on meds through my family doctor. Meds help, but certainly don't cure.

[weegmack]

Your post is like I was reading about myself - I’m 43 and been suffering my whole life too. IBS also. I feel so ill a lot of the time and I also can’t tolerate anti-anxiety pills or antidepressants (violently sick!). Like you, I have terrible health anxiety. I can’t remember what it feels like to feel well.

I think because we are fighting this all day, every day, without any meds, it’s just plain exhausting. That feeling of your legs giving way happens to me a lot - so I put that down to exhaustion.

You’re definitely not alone - though I know it feels so much like you are. I’m so sorry you feel so bad 😕

[butterfly2121]

I totally get it and want you to know you are not alone. I suffer from anxiety, depression and ptsd. I have had these things for most of my life and I am 47. I too feel very overwhelmed and anxious the past week and had a panic attack. My doctor adjusted my medians a bit but it is frustrating. I have been on so many medications over the years I sometimes thing there is no magic pill. I sure wish there was one that could make it all go away. I know that being off the meds would e even worse for myself though. (Except when I was on zoloft....totally was not right for my system and I was crying all the time. Once I switched things got better.) There is a test called GENE SITE I(not sure if that is the correct spelling. It's a check swab that can show how your body metabolizes medications and can help steer you towards ones that would work for your body. Insurance usually does not cover it though but the company that offers it had a coupon that my out of pocket would be no more than $300. I got desperate trying to find the right medications so I went through with it. It did help me find something that got me back on my feet but alas the depression and anxiety are flaring up again. Some days I really wish I did not have to take this medication. I wonder if it is helping or hurting but the times I have tried to wean off have been disastrous. Sending you a hug.

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Hi there I have almost the same problem with depression and anxieties all my life and the people around me just said it was all in my head, soi just had to hold it together best I can. Be strong when I didn't want to go to work when I didn't want to. I found some Coping Skills that helped me get through some of the hard times. But your not alone at all people just need to speak up and help each other through the hard times. No one needs to do it alone

[Xenia33]

I really can relate to what you said. The physical illness I feel all the time is overwhelming. I am so tired of feeling anxious and sick. It's hard to do anything. I am disappointed in myself too. I keep trying to pick myself up but it's getting harder every time. You are not alone.