I don’t want to be on this forum right now. Honestly I don’t really want to talk to anybody right now. I don’t want to talk to my boyfriend. I don’t want to talk to my family. I don’t want to call the crisis line and talk about all my bs all over again and again and again for the millionth f—-ing time. But I have to f——Ing try. Even if I’m angry I still f—ing feel like I have to f—-ing try, it’s f——ing annoying. So here I am, sorry this has to be the place where I let out my anger. I was feeling extremely angry, agitated and irritable. Ive been so all day and the day just kept getting worse and worse the whole day, one f—ck up after another it’s like all day that’s all that anyone talked about all day, was all my mistakes, and they’re huge and how they need to be addressed absolutely because they’re not going to go away otherwise. I HAD a very intense suicide ideation moment, but it passed, but I’m still highly irritable, etc. and I hate feeling like this... it’s always like i have to choose for my mental health or my life, I chose for my life this time and my mental health got wrecked because of it... and next I’m going to pick my mental health and watch my life get wrecked because of it... when tf is it going to end.... I’m sick of all this bs so sick of it... it’s so stupid. Seriously sorry for anyone who had to subject their eyes to this. It makes
Me want to throw up.
Trigger warning- abuse/childhood abuse
Hey I’m new, don’t know how to do this
