For over 15 years I have been struggling with demons of anxity, depression, panic attacks, horrfing vivid dreams....I have been treated by several doctors and therapists. Gone through over 50 different medications...did genetic tests for medication...None of it helps, I can't get doctors or family to understand severity of my pain, I feel that would be major step to my recovery or slight relif.
I'm a single dad, and my relationship with my daughter has suffered extremely due to my condition.
My life became unmanageable.
Any thoughts, suggestions are greatly appreciated.
I hear you. And I’m sorry ... I know what it’s like to not be understood especially when it comes to the pain endured. Unless you’ve felt it I guess well I guess the understanding is limited.
All we can do is our best and when we feel we are slipping, keep going all the way through to where some of the heaviness leaves and we can breathe again.
How old is your daughter?
I have a 24 year old, 12 year old, 7 year old, all boys.
13 years old....smart girl, but I have been unable to be there for her physically and mentally as my condition has taken over my life. I have done alot of things with her but I have no feeling happy memories. Her growing up is a big blur in my head.
Do you think she has happy memories? I bet being around you means more to her than she might suggest. I know my 12 year old appreciates me even when I can’t feel the happiness that he does , those good memories, but he picks them out and let’s me know in his own way that things are still good. I learn from my kids, and them, from me. I bet you teach your daughter many valuable things. And maybe she can help you stay strong.
I have done everything I was capable off, and will keep on doing so. She has my full financial support. But...it seems she has started distancing her self...it may be that age too...but when she was younger she only wanted to spend time with me even when she is supposed to be at he mom's.
Things have changed...but I will do everything in my power to rebuild my relationship she has been my drive for living even in this messed up disease.
Thank you for your thoughts.
It sounds like you are doing a really great job... you are doing all you can for her. You care so much, that is evident.
It’s hard to know what to do and say when they are this age. I use my instincts and ask lots of questions and listen carefully.