why I am here....

[mizzou7016]

A question was asked on why we are here...why do we respond...sometimes negatively to things we see on here.... I've been a corrections officer for 25+ years....my soul has taken a very dark turn over the last 5-7 years because of things I've seen or dealt with over the years....I try to help and offer advice through this site....but sometimes it's hard to understand what people are going through and are they being sincere and genuine....I will offer any kind of help I can....but I won't sugar coat it....If i post on here remember it's genuine and I do care about all of you....but if I don't feel like i'll be a help.....I won't post....have a good day and blessed be

[mizzou7016]

unfortunately my soul has sometimes become very dark because of my chosen profession.....luckily for me the dark moments are few and far between.....

[kenster1]

25 years service to help make the world a better safer place deserves a pat on the back.

[mizzou7016 in reply to kenster1]

That is one of many dilemma's that I face....am I really making a difference... I sometimes feel like no matter what i do it doesn't make a difference.....it's a struggle for me because I am 150% an empath....and trying to reach some of the younger kids....it's tough.....thank you for the support though....it means a lot

[LifeIsThePitts]

Your photo is gorgeous. I too absorb the energy of the room, so to speak. I'm trying to build up new coping strategies that shield me from the draining emotional aspects. My workplace is also My #1 most challenging anxiety provoking environment. It's my Achilles heel of emotional angst. Most days I wake up in dread about going to my job. However, it's NOTHING like the hard environment you're exposed to daily. I've been in my industry since 1994...29 years in Aug and I'm completely burned out but can't walk away from a lucrative income with no college degree or any experience in the "real world" workforce. Id need 3-4 full time menial jobs to replace my income, therefore I'm trapped and that's the toughest pill to swallow.

I get what you're going through.

[primrose81]

You make the world a better place

[Tealpillow]

Your feelings are completely valid! That’s an incredibly difficult job and anyone with a heart would be burned out after after 25 years. My mother in law was a corrections officer in TX when she was in her 20s and the stories she can tell! Omg 😱 I honestly think it traumatized her.

It’s totally human to be affected by our work environment and yours is particularly challenging. The fact you’ve been there 25+ years is impressive. Perhaps you are nearing retirement?

[mizzou7016 in reply to Tealpillow]

yes....august of 2024.....hopefully my stars will align and i can go....will have to do something else....but it will be nice to have a retirement under my belt at 54 years of age..

[Tealpillow in reply to mizzou7016]

Absolutely! Good on you

[Thankfulforhelp22]

Appreciate you and your honesty.

[Turnipgirl]

Baby sends many happy returns to Prince Pixie on his 9th birthday!