Don't know if this site is what I need but I need some answers, help, someone to talk to.
I lost my wife of 34 years on april 6 2016 and dealt with it on my own for over a year and never thought It would get better. then I met someone and started dating again im august 2017 things went really well we had fun were always doing things but we never moved in together because I have my own place, at the end of september she started being distant to me and I keep asking if we were ok which she would reply yes of course . to make a long story short t the end of october we went out for my birthday and on the way home she said she wanted to explore her options and that was it, no explanation and she wouldn't tell me anything no contact nothing. I haven't slept over 3 hours a night or hardly eaten since, Its like having my wife pass all over again i have lost over 16 lbs and my job is suffering because its hard to focus and I keep running things over and over in my head every spare moment I don't want to go or do anything just dont want to be in public (even though I have too do it for work) I really fill like I don't want to go on sometimes. I even joined a gym to keep busy.
I dont have the money for Dr. or have time to take off so thats why Im on here looking for some kind of help.
im sorry for the long text and if this is the wrong place for me to be I apologize and keep looking. Thanks for taking the time to read.