Feeling Hollow

I'm experiencing so much depression that my mind is completely blank almost all the time. My life is meaningless. I'm waiting for my next therapy appointment. I feel lost and numb. I'm doing everything I can to fight this depression but I feel like I am drowning. I jog and cry. I don't even know if this makes sense or if anyone cares. I'm crying out for help but even posting here seems pointless.

[Agora1]

Heavenly7, we all need someone to reach out to at times when we feel

so low, so empty. What better place than here where we understand

what it's like. Sometimes family and friends just don't comprehend what

it's like to feel so hollow. The bewildered look they give you just makes us

feel more alone and hopeless.

I'm glad to welcome you to this great support forum. Sending you love

and hope that each day will get better. xx

[Hidden in reply to Agora1]

Thank you so much. I'm so grateful for your reply. I'm literally just going through the motions of living life until my therapy appointment. I live in a small town and feel really isolated. But even around other people I can't get rid of the hollow feeling. Connection with people who have experienced this feeling is helpful.

I don't even enjoy eating food anymore. It's like a total lack of ability to feel anything but tears or anger. It's frightening thinking that I could feel this way forever.

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

❤️

[sadskies00]

I totally understand what you mean. My brain feels so cluttered and I’m usually very driven and focused but it’s hard to complete tasks and i forget many things that i shouldn’t. like you said, things seem pointless and telling others about your problems (even family and friends) feels pointless cause it seems like no one cares and no one really does anything to help.

[Hidden in reply to sadskies00]

Yes! Talking to family and friends seems to make it worse because they can't relate, or have their own problems. And I can totally relate to having a hard time completing tasks. It's all I can do to get through the day and pay bills and exercise. I never feel hungry anymore and have no interest in hobbies. Thank you for your reply, talking to people who feel the same way helps. We have to stick together and help each other up, one day at a time. Peace.

[Mrspjsmom]

Posting is never pointless. We all need support at times. Being able to get that support from people who experience depression is especially helpful. Is there any way your therapist can see you sooner? Are you on medication? If you are you may need to have your dosage adjusted. Hope this is helpful in some small way.

[Hidden in reply to Mrspjsmom]

Hello. I live in a small town with limited access to counseling. I'm pushing to get in as soon as possible. I desperately need to move to a city with access to better help and resources. I live on disability and live alone. I'm trusting the universe to open up doors to get the help I need and deserve. My faith in a spiritual higher power and my willingness to reach out and speak up for myself and make any and all needed changes are keeping me pushing through one day at a time.

[Mrspjsmom in reply to Hidden]

You are definitely on the right track. Keep pushing even if some days it has to be an hour at a time. Your faith will help. So glad I saw your post. HUGS and BLESSINGS!

[NeuronerdDoaty]

Depression is a liar. Fatigue from depression saps thoughts out of your head.

Of course we care. Of course you post; just like I do.

Your brain is an organ with messed up neurotransmitters. It could be your pancreas for diabetes but it’s our brains. These are our symptoms. Post because your not alone. Close your eyes. Hold out your hand. I have your hand. We walk this road together with many others.

Sending you peace and love.

Doaty💛

[Hidden in reply to NeuronerdDoaty]

Thank you so much!! Just knowing that I am not alone helps me tremendously! I will take your hand gratefully. I will hold you up as well. Much love and peace.

[Flor1]

Hi Heavenly, I understand how you feel, I feel like that almost everyday and it's horrible! Every day try to remember something that you like or you used to like. Like a movie, pets, countries anything. For example, I love baby animals so when I am super down I just you tube funny babies animals, the baby elephants are super cute and silly. It's helps to distract and calm our mind from negative thinking. You are not alone. Take care 🌺

[Hidden in reply to Flor1]

Thank you so much!! Today I remembered that I like to mud mask my face and drink soothing tea. Oddly enough it really is helping. Much love to you and thank you!

[Flor1 in reply to Hidden]

That sounds super good I like to do that too! ❤

[Ceramicpainter]

I hear you. I understand you. I care. I'm sorry we feel this way. No one deserves feeling this way. It's not your fault. I wish we could reassure each other in person. I think we need more positive warm physical interaction.

[ts116]

I feel you and posting on here can be a great release and often people have supportive responses and affirmations. Just the fact that you’re reaching out in any capacity is admirable and even though the depression cloud hangs low sometimes your life does have meaning. I know that’s not going to magically make you feel better but just know that people are there with you and at I do! Maybe talking it out with a supportive figure in your life might help? Have you told your therapist you feel this way?

[cmore]

Keep reading and trying all types of treatments for depression. You WILL find what helps you feel well.