Ominous feeling

I’ve honestly had a pretty good day today.and have no real reason to feel like this but in the end I still have that feeling of emptiness. I know it’s a part of living with depression. Just sometimes I wonder why, even on a very good day, I still have that feeling deep down that something is wrong. It bothers me that even when everything is pretty good( and I should be happy) I still feel it.. yeah, sorry if that brings anyone down , I was just thinking about it

[foxglove_pnw]

Sorry you are feeling like that....right now I am having the same kind of feelings !

I also had a good day : yoga, coffee with a friend, went for a walk with my son and my dog and spent 2 hours at church for a Bible Study. As I came home I am feeling depressed My health anxiety is taking over me again ( I hit my head on the car door and now I think I have bleeding in my brain !

It is exhausting to say the least !

[Hidden in reply to foxglove_pnw]

that does sound exhausting, but at least we both have some positives from today to try and focus on ( even though for some reason tonight doesn’t seem to work that way) and odds are no bleeding on the brain from the door incident, but darn health anxiety won’t let that one go.. my anxiety is mild in comparison to my depression, so thank god for that. something I still have to deal with, but the depression definitely has its fingers dug in deep lately for some reason, kind of at a loss for words at the moment, just wish I didn’t have to feel like this

[foxglove_pnw in reply to Hidden]

I had several good days and then here I am with health anxiety and feeling down ! I am not sure why I am always surprised when anxiety/depression/ocd takes a hold of me.

I have the opposite, my depression is very mild and my anxiety is over the top. You sprinkle that with some OCD and that is my diagnosis !

As Dolphin14 said, I hope this doesn't last long !!!

[Hidden in reply to foxglove_pnw]

It’s like we almost convince ourselves that it has gone away some how, even though we know it hasn’t

[clopez1514 in reply to foxglove_pnw]

I hit my head on the dryer door a couple of days ago and thought the same thing... I to go to church and pray that God take this all away... or help me endure... I want to be healthy so I can enjoy my babies.

[foxglove_pnw in reply to clopez1514]

Thanks for the reply ! I am always catastrophizing everything !

[Dolphin14]

I'm sorry you are struggling. I think that's the nature of the illness?

Kind of sneaks up on you and you get a pit in your stomach.

Hopefully it won't last long.

[Hidden in reply to Dolphin14]

I guess that’s true ( and I should know that at this point) it’s just been a minute since I felt the pit in it’s entirety. I’m used to dealing with it on some level, and have been a little down lately, but yeah like you said snuck up on me cause I thought I was doing better today

[Dolphin14 in reply to Hidden]

All we can hope is the feeling goes away and we can start fresh.

[Hidden in reply to Dolphin14]

That’s a very good perspective for me right now, thank you

[clopez1514]

Don’t be sorry ❤️

[Hidden in reply to clopez1514]

Thank you, that’s a good point

[quitter333]

do more things in life.

For example yesterday I happened to be in woods right after rain, and that reminded me how much I love fresh air. Took away all negativity i had that day

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so hike, go to movies, participate in mma class, eat at good restaurant, pet a dog, obseeve wild animals, kiss a girl... something will be more exciting than you expected

[Hidden in reply to quitter333]

Yeah i was up in the forest earlier today with my dogs, I’m mainly trying to get my focus back to how nice it was while I was up there, I just got hit with an extra lovely wave of depression for no good reason this evening/ night

[clopez1514]

Hello, I’m new to this group.. I’m excited there is a support group.. I’m currently dealing with physical anxiety... I have chronic headaches, muscle spasms, acid reflux, joint pain, stomach pain. This was all triggered 1 1/2 months ago when the acid reflux hit.. now I’m on medical leave and pushing for an MRI and scheduled for an endoscopy.. I’m so terrified and my anxiety has hit its peek. 😢 some words of encouragement would be nice.

[Hidden in reply to clopez1514]

Well it sounds like you’ve come to the right place. and it’s hard to learn to deal with these stressful thoughts, but here I think you will find some good advice and some support along your way

[foxglove_pnw in reply to clopez1514]

Welcome to the group ! I am glad you are

Sorry about your anxiety ! I am glad you are following up with a doctor about your symptoms.

Haver you talked to your doctor about your anxiety ?

[clopez1514 in reply to foxglove_pnw]

Yes. I think I overwhelm her. Lol.. she said she thinks all my symptoms are anxiety provoked because they are all random and started around the same time.

[foxglove_pnw in reply to clopez1514]

I am glad you did !

It is always good to double check even if the symptoms seems to be provoked by anxiety !

[Dolphin14 in reply to clopez1514]

Better to " overwhelm" her lol than chalk it all up to anxiety before checking all things out. I'm glad the ms is being more proactive. Some just say anxiety and leave you hanging with all sorts of questions.

Many things can be missed without full work ups.

So I'm glad you are doing the testing

Welcome to the group

[HopeWithSmile]

I know the feeling. Because I’m feeling it right this second. I am on my way to the office walking down the street listening to some music on my phone. And I skip every “happy” song, trying to find something calm, because I just feel too empty and anxious about another day full of documents, papers, calls, etc.

[Hidden in reply to HopeWithSmile]

Yeah it seems like it must be one of those days for a lot of us, kind of weird lol

[HopeWithSmile in reply to Hidden]

Yeah! And we need to power through.

[foxglove_pnw in reply to HopeWithSmile]

Wishing you peace as your day starts !

[HopeWithSmile in reply to foxglove_pnw]

Thank you so much foxglove_pnw! I will definitely need it! xx

[bluestars725]

I so relate to this. I can be having a good day, and still feel the pull of my anxiety disorder and depression. I worry pretty much all the time, and with my depression it feels as though there is this dark cloud that is following me around even when it's not directly raining on me.

[Hidden in reply to bluestars725]

Yeah it’s a struggle, that’s all I know for sure, and that I’m happy to have found this place for support

[bluestars725 in reply to Hidden]

Same here. It's comforting to be able to talk to people who understand what I go through with these mental illnesses every day.

[Hidden]

I understand completely. Its frustrating.