With every day passing, it is getting harder. I am depressed and i have no one to share with. I found this website online so that i have someone to open up to.
I am so tired of life. I tried to hurt myself several times and now i really want to get out of this situation and live a happy normal life. I searched some anti depressants but i am not sure what to choose. I can not even go to a doctor because i dont want to open up to someone without being anonymous.
Can you people please suggest me some anti depressants. Or something that can help me get out of this situation and guide me a bit please.. i will be grateful.
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You will need a prescription for any anti depressant and that means a doctor. Why are you reluctant to see a Doctor ?I'm not overly fond of them myself , but they are the means to an end.
Honestly, this is not the kind of thing you can do on your own. The more support you have the easier it will be to recover. Wanting to be alone and hide your issues is common to us , but not necessarily good for us. Having a Doctor who will understand and help is worth looking for and hard to find. There are many self help books available which I think are helpful in conjunction with a therapist or a GP . Pam
A Doctor will be able to ask the necessary questions to determine what your needs are. You don't have to do the work. It's always a good idea to ask questions and stay knowledgeable about your situation .
Going through it alone is difficult. You don't need to research meds if you want to go it alone.
You should probably check out natural remedies.
You can't be anonymous in the medical world due to insurance etc. so, that is definately out.
I wish you the best. Just be very careful. The fact that you have almost hurt yourself means you are at high risk. Please use available resources as needed.
I cry twice a day atleast. Not specifically when alone,but during my class lectures and sometimes working at home. I do not enjoy anything happening around me. I wont commit suicide but if i had a choice between living and dying id prefer death over life. I hurt myself to get all the anger out of me. Because the people close to me whom i love,they wont listen to me. They just see what i am going through and act like its normal. It just hurts me more..
Thankyou so much!!! I really need someone to talk to. Someone who would listen and understand me.i am not really opening up here because you know its hard for me to tell everything here.
That depression is a forever-illness. And maybe it is.
But maybe it is not.
Please whoever and where ever you are
Hold on
Stay here
With me.
Just for a moment.
One.
Do you know how big and complex depression is? You need help.
You deserve help.
Let me help you. Let your family help you. Let a therapist help you. They would all love to hold your hand through dark times like these.
Two.
Do not be ashamed of your depression.You are precious. With or without depression. You colour life in marvelous colours. Even the bad ones. The ugly ones.
You are marvelous.
Three.
Do you remember last summer? Flowers and bees crowding meadows. Sunshine and blue skies accentuating a mesmerizing day. Laughter floating past through a warm summer breeze.
Have you laughed along? Laughed too loud. Too much. No?
Then let this be the Safe Place of your mind.
Let darkness come in a million little ways.
On this meadow you are safe.
(Picture this as a daily practice. A safe place needs to develop to really be helpful and provide the needed amount of safety and familiarity.)
Four.
Be sad/angry about your situation. Scream into the pillow on the bed. Let tears of old and heavy sorrow roll down your cheeks. Let your feelings show. You never know when they might leave you paralyzed.
Five.
Numbness has conquered you. Body is cold. Mind is empty. You are alive. Yet gone. Life has no meaning. No purpose. Death is the only way out.
Move one hand. Slower. Move one leg. Slow. Breathe. In and out. Deep breaths. Counting each of them. Slowly get out of bed. One foot and then the next.
Call a person you trust. This is just one moment. One memory you may keep forever. But people will catch you if you let them.
Do not go. Not yet.
To be prepared for moments like these:
Make a plan. Step by step.
One: How to get out bed.
Two: Who do you call?
Three: What do you do while you are alone? Which movie/video do you watch? Can you chat with someone?
Four: If all else fails, call an ambulance.
Six.
Talk about it. Talk about the empty feelings. The rush of thoughts. The urge to leave and end it.
Talk it out. Scream it out. Loved ones will hear and answer you.
This is not the end.
This is just the end of a new beginning.
Depression is not explainable. Not in a way which would make it bearable. But you can make it.
Life comes in a million moments. These are just a few of them.
To be honest with you, I prefer my own company, with Wife and Dog. Sometimes dogs speek more sense than those hot heads in Society.
It is sad you have no-one to trust, although I find my own company following my hobbies and diversions takes my mind of troubling problems.
Today we took Pax out for a walk down at the coast, we watched several Dolphins for a time and Pax had a good Gallop. When home I have been on the computer reading and just enjoying the peace around me. I also did some sorting of my Library as I am waiting for several books that will need space, this lead me to going through titles I had not looked at for quite a time. So I also did some research on Greek History.
I am sorry about how you feel! Depression is not easy. Don't hurt yourself. I would recommend loving yourself a lot. You are very valuable. Doctors can be our friends. They want to see people get well. Maybe by sharing here you can feel comfortable about sharing. A therapist is someone who will listen to you and guide you. A therapist can help you a lot. We can recommend medications to you but you need a doctor to get them prescribed to you. I hope that you decide to meet with a doctor and a therapist. They both can help you a lot. I hope that you do what is necessary for your wellness. You deserve to get better. You are an important human being.
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Living the way we want to live with our mental illnesses -now is time 
Do I want to get better?
Coping with depression that makes you not want to live. 
I want to just be done
I just want to be done! 
