I want change,I want the hall mark miracle. I want to live

[Ncrazy]

Every day anxiety intrusive thoughts ptsd signs.The life of watching and living the low-income pothere.Low rosecution contration camp ghetto life.You get the bricks in you,like the song hotel California you never leave.When you do leave the scars are still there.Low-income prison problem after problem chaos and drama,if its no public doll,not enough money then the mental instabilty if its not that the car broke down can't afford to fix it etc,etc,etc.Looking out the window or summer nights listen threw the walls or screens.The jones beaten one another or beaten there kids or doing drugs and the baby next door is in a soil dimper screaming.

My parents beaten me or the strange teen age nieghbor up stairs likes to hang out with the wee little children.knows that your parents are working on the docks late.

The aweful public doll conversation parents talking "saying I wish i never had kids". Or the Emmy ville conversation " do you ever think of...."

I want to live!!!! The hall mark miracle leaving the state going to beautiful community,the kind of community that people say good morning clean.A new start fresh beginning.start my own towing business or something,buy a piece of American.The holiday dinners,the exotic vacation,normal functional relationships barbcues.personal achievements. Materialistic achievements etc.

I am so sick of being stuck

[Used2Bfine]

Sorry to hear that you were feeling so stuck. I wish I could send you a magic pill with encouragement so that you can just leave where you’re at and go somewhere to start again. Lots of hugs for you today.

[Ncrazy in reply to Used2Bfine]

Thanks same to all us who want to live consistent stable life normal holiday dinner vacations barbcues friends relationships.

[Used2Bfine in reply to Ncrazy]

it Doesn’t happen here either. 😞

[Ncrazy in reply to Used2Bfine]

We can't given up!!!! I grew up in a third world ghetto poverty prosecution constraction camp. I use sit in the broken down play park dreaming of life with out chaos poverty fighting not living a life like this.

We can't give up.A life of a beautiful home hard wood floors nick nats in there place.beautiful cars in the driveway proud dignity career we feel apart we contribute to society.The normal romance relationship exotic fun vacations.

LIFE

[Mommyyof02]

I wish i can live too i am stuck fighting my brain all day with these ugly intrusive thoughs anxiety urges etc its horrible and Major doubts that give me fear😢

[Ncrazy in reply to Mommyyof02]

I know i deal with it to.your still alive so why not try to live.take a vacation,a normal relationships ect.DONT LET YOUR DECEASE TAKE YOUR LIFE