Hello Alice. Welcome to the forum. I am sorry you are suffering with depression. It is great you have joined this forum to get support and meant fellow sufferers.

I understand how you feel. A little over 2 years ago I packed my bags and moved out of state where I know noone except some family members. I’m miserable here too. Just from my experience, moving didn’t help at all. In my case it only added more stress and made my symptoms worse. But I do totally understand how you are feeling. This is just what I experieced.

Hi Alice,

Nice to meet you I don't know how old you are but I can tell you that I've struggled with depression, and anxiety my whole life, and as a younger person I was bipolar as well. I can vouch for the fact that as a young person depression sucks bigger time than most, at least from my point of view. Just a lovely little bunch of mental issues that liked to play rounds of sports with negative thoughts in my head. It's been like "Hey! Let's say we kick around the idea of her being a complete loser today shall we?!" And before you know it...score! I'd replay sh*t that went on that day or that week or even that hour, over and over in my head and kept feeling that rock in the pit of my stomach. That awful gut feeling would color my view on anything else. I'm a runner too, I loved (and still love) the idea of being Cher in the movie Mermaids, where she just chooses a point on the map and they go! If you've ever seen it, the running doesn't help in the end, but for the mom it was the way she coped with junk. I'm kinda in a bad way to go now in my living situation, but, I can't leave here right now. So I let myself feel the depressed side of it when it wants to come, only because it gets worse if you try and fight it. And, I remind myself that this sh*t is only temporary, and I allow myself to feel good about other stuff like, maybe helping an old lady across the street, buying someone's coffee, or getting a good grade, or even just a passing one, or painting a smile on a rock and leaving it for someone to find because sister, we are not alone. There are more of us out there than you can shake a stick at, and the best thing is you're here in this community you are heard, and supported. So, chin up babygirl, you're going to be ok. With Love Always...AU

I'm so happy you're here! The getting up in the morning issue really resonates with me! Is there any way of changing your work schedule? Are you seeing a therapist for your depression? If not, it may be a good time to start. Sending good karma your way Alice!

Welcome! So glad you are here! Sorry you are feeling so low. Your post reminded me of two books which helped me. You might want to check out Purpose Driven Life. bit.ly/2Y1I8XL and Anxious for Nothing by Max Lucado. Both helped me when I was in the "pit". Hoping they will help you. Blessings to you today, friend!

Welcome. When my hubs dies I’m dying my hair pink and living in an RV. I’m going to drive my kids crazy as payback. I might even learn to smoke and call people ‘doll’ in a raspy voice.

Why not? Do it. Get that car paid off and find something that makes you get out of bed. I love my career. You should find something that brings you satisfaction. Don’t waste your time. My best friend travels around dipping/making candles at festivals. Neither of us have worked a day in our life.

Take care of yourself

Doaty💛