Mind takes over

Hi everyone...I joined this group a few days ago. I have made several attempts to write posts on here but it gave me anxiety just to do that. So here I am today, finally able to type this out. I struggle with depression, anxiety and panic attacks, bipolar and ptsd.

It wasn’t up until this year that I took my mental health serious. Since then I have switched medicines numerous times to try to find my cocktail of pills that work. I’m on lithium, trileptal, trazodone and atarax. I’ve only been on lithium for few weeks and haven’t noticed any changes.

My mind takes over at times, it’s overwhelming. I have trouble focusing and functioning in everyday activities. When I think I’m doing good or have good days then I usually crash after a certain period of good days. When I crash, I hit hard. The self doubt, the self worth comments creep in, I beat myself up. It’s a vicious cycle, a horrible roller coaster ride that I can’t seem to exit. I been in therapy for months now. I think it helps but I still struggle. What do you do, when you get so low, in those moments, how do you cope or manage those feelings? The feelings of not being good enough, or have any self worth. I just need some advice and support. Thank you for taking your time to read this.

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Hello and welcome. Well done on being able to write a post. It is not easy to write the first post and it can be really difficult to vocalise feelings. I am glad you are having therapy. Once a therapist told me it is only after the therapy ends that a person can take it all in and put things into practice. I do not know if that is true at all.

As for having low self esteem, could you try to list five things you like about yourself? It may be tough but just thinking of nice things about yourself will make you think of yourself in a different way. You could even put them on here.

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Thanks so much for the warm welcome here. I have made list of 5 things I like about myself and even journaled positive things. I suppose I need to stick to being positive if things will change. I agree with you on the therapy about once it ends that a person can take it all in. I suppose I’m wanting to jump across the bridge to get to the other side instead of putting the work in and dealing with things. It’s just hard. How do people get to the other side of the bridge and be okay once they are there?

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It is wonderful you found 5 positive things about yourself. I think sticking with thinking of positive things sounds really helpful. Often people beat themselves up and just think of things that they do not like. I think it just takes time. I find if I think of the future then I panic and feel afraid. Taking each day as it comes works better for me. Perhaps it will work better for you too.