Mind over matter.

[blairm90]

Hi guys, my name is Blair. This is my very first time in a support group. So I’m really not sure how to do this. I suffer from anxiety and depression. I have my good days and then my not so good days. I’ve recently came out to some of my family and friends as a lesbian. They all support me completely and want only happiness for me. For that I am thankful. In doing this I met a wonderful, amazing girl online back in April. We were non stop talking, texting and FaceTiming constantly. We finally met in July, and by this time I had grown attached. But I knew she only wanted to be friends for her own personal reasons. I still fell none the less. So we met, and it was amazing. We really connected. Once I got back home, things changed. We don’t FaceTime at all, she barely talks on the phone and the only time I hear from her is if I contact her first. It’s put me in a real slump lately. I can feel myself slowly climbing out, but there are just these mornings when I wake up and I immediately want to forget the day. Now my anxiety/depression doesn’t just come from this girl, it’s life in general for me is hard right now financially/ mentally/ everyday brings another challenge. If I didn’t have my sister and my mom, I honestly couldn’t have made it through. Everyday is a struggle in some way, but I talk and calm myself down when I feel it getting to me. Mind over matter. Life is hard, but you have t choose how you deal with it.

[Strongheartforever]

You’ll be ok and you’ll find a better, more compatible partner who has the capacity to love you deeper and truer than she could. This time in your life will help you get stronger. Have faith that you’re moving closer to a better life. Hope you stay here and become a part of this forum. If you can give support or advice when you feel inspired to, you’ll see it will heal you as well.

[Hidden]

Hello Blair!

Welcome to this forum! I think you will find the people here to be friendly and caring. Congratulations on coming out! I’m sure that must have been a huge relief. I’m sorry about the essential loss of your friend. That’s just the way love goes as Janet Jackson would say! You’ll get over her in time. Stay busy working on yourself! Love has a way of sneaking up on us when we least expect it! Focus on Blair! I believe in mind over matter too...it works in helping us change negatively into positivity! 🙂🌺🙂

[Strongheartforever in reply to Hidden]

Gratitude you are such a lovely soul. I just warm up when I read your words. Thank you for your contributions here. You bring sunshine to our days! I think it’s 3 am where you are, you sweet adorable insomniac you. We support you Blair and we welcome you and embrace you. As long as you’re here, you’ll never walk alone.

[Rubystones]

Congratulations on coming out!, I admire your courage cos I am currently in a state of dilemma. When I worry about not been good enough for people or nobody caring about me, I almost forget to realize only what I do to me and think about me matters, You would surely find someone you don’t always have to do the calling and texting all the time with, am sorry about your friend, but there are four stages to a broken heart and the last is acceptance either ways good or bad so you can move on. I wish you the best. No matter the situation you are in, just know there are people going through worse but you are strong enough to fight through yours. Just type out how you feel on here, it helps.

[blairm90]

Thank all you guys so much for the encouraging words!! It helps more than you know! I am keeping busy and concentrating on myself. I’m working on being more social instead of always going home. People need people and I truly appreciate all of you!!