Trying my hardest to hold the tears in

[Ginger289]

Today has been a rough one. I have just felt kindly attacked all day and have been on the verge of tears and walking out of my job. I know that rationally the things said to me were probably meant from a funny joking place but my feelings just couldn't handle that today. I messaged my ex girlfriend for some in person support or a phone call and she opted for the phone call. I desperately wanted her to say she would see me just so I could have some physical contact with her. I miss her so much and I am working on me so I can win her back. I just don't feel whole not that she isn't there everyday. I don't know if that's what kinda sparked my whole panic and anxiety today or not. Just needed to get it out to someone so I can have it out of my head and hopefully off my mind.

[kenster1]

hi sorry to hear that but good to hear that your working on yourself the most important to do it for is yourself though.

[summerbaby1991]

It sounds like im going through something similar to you. I miss my ex so much that I am a complete mess. I can control my emotions. I will be out places and leave abruptly because I just cant hold the tears back anymore. Im working on being a better person and I hope that my ex will see that and will be willing to work on things. The tough thing is he has been talking to his ex girlfriend which makes things wrose for me. We need to focus on ourselves and if they cant see that we are awesome people then we need to move on. There is someone out there that will love all of us.

[Ginger289 in reply to summerbaby1991]

I agree. I am figuring out I need to be happy for me and with me before I can make other people happy. I am trying to learn that this doesn't make me selfish but makes me more self aware with my self care.