Deep down I’m very sensitive and have had my feelings hurt a lot lately. There are things in my life that I feel embarrassed about and I accept that right now I am not in the position to change it so I try to not think about those, but then it tries to interfere with any bit of happiness I get.
Deep down I feel like people get tired of hearing it when it’s almost always something. Should I not reach out then?
Deep down I wish I was closer to people but the shy embarrassed part of me and the me who isolates creates a barrier between me and others. I can work on that.
Deep down I ask myself when if ever will I be okay. I’m so tired. I didn’t ask to be living and I can’t leave this scary place I’m in. I could try to see in a new light but mental illness makes it difficult to see.
Thanks for listening. Thanks to those who understand and I’m sorry if you do. No one should have to live this way.
May God bless us all and help us to have wisdom, courage, happiness, peace and love. ❤️
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Love you 🥰 and feeling the love Agora. I can work on letting things others say and do, slide off me. Not easy for me.
I am going to have workers in my home for three weeks starting Wednesday and I know I will need to be very strong and not break. The safe places I have will be taken over and I will have to try to make other areas safe.
Feels like things are spinning out of control but I will get through, I always have... I just don’t want to worsen symptoms but the best I can do is try to prepare myself the best I can.
Yes a plan. I just think I will lock myself up in a room except for the 4 times a day when I have to go out. Well, I’ll figure it out. And yes you guys will be here during that time and in knowing that there is some comfort.
I will be in your safe place with you and your friends. Right now I'm a wounded dove too. S. I can think of no better place to hang out than with the two of you!
I'm with my sweetie. It's funny how those that wound you can sometimes try to save you too. I do want to talk about it. But, later on okay? Maybe in the morning after you get back up again. My sweetie will take the rest of my day until the wee hours of the morning. S, thanks for being my friend. Okay?
me and you star and hundreds more probably feel the same way our thoughts are real but not a true reflection of reality.people will always reach out to you and yes one day you will be ok.it might not be today or tomorrow or the next day but yeah one day you will be ok.
Sometimes it has to be okay to feel not so okay. Thanks for being with me. Hmmm yeah our thoughts are not always a reflection of reality. I feel like things are better than we think up a lot of the time but I do question that because in this world there is evil too.
I ask myself all the time when and if ever will I be ok? Your not alone in that. I feel like I was not meant to be happy and that's not true. Everyone deserves to be happy. I have always did a good job at hiding my depression but right now it is at the point that I just cant do it anymore. I am doing everything I can to get better and you should to. I think we just need to find the right thing that can help us get there.
Thank you so much 😊 yes I will be staying here. And trying to be hopeful. Today I drove around 4 times and all easy although I didn’t venture very far.
It's really hard. I find myself thinking, "I hate myself" multiple times a day. BUT, I do not wake up with the first thought being, "NOOO!" because I don't want to wake up. No. Today I woke thinking about a sewing project. I planned and packed for the visit to my parents.
It just doesn't go away fast, or all at the same time. There are so many regrets and losses that I think we may need to fight them one at a time.
I like watching youtube videos of good and bad preachers....call it a hobby. One got my attention when He said, "If you keep looking ahead at how far from your goal you are you'll feel hopeless, and maybe even give up. Turn around. Take a good look at where you used to be. It's about how far you've come, not how far you have to go." _ Todd Friel
Thank you. I was sewing really late and managed to cut my finger badly, but it is coming along well. I am reupholstery for the 6 cushions my son has.
I need to join this ‘club’...I feel like I just want to end it all but I can’t for the sake of my family. I am manic depressive due to trauma. I then did things that I am ashamed to admit. I have thought about death constantly yet I don’t really want to die. I just want the pain to stop,
I was completely ‘normal’ prior to September 2017 when my nightmare occurred. Someone please help me. Tell me to hang on,
Hang in there Returtonormal9. Do you want to talk more about anything? I’m here to listen. You could also pm me if you ever want to.
I’m really sorry you are in so much pain. I too have bipolar and trauma. I have in the past wished to die but knew I couldn’t do it to my family. Things can get better. I swear things can get better. Keep hope. Keep faith. Keep love. Be kind to yourself.
Just now was reading your posts. I really hope you’re feeling a lot better today!! You are such a caring, kind friend on here please feel good about, care and love yourself !! Hugs to you and thank you also for all the kind helpful care you give!!!!💞🌻🌹🌷🤩
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Anyone feel the same?
