falling into deep depression

[bluetazz1]

i am falling apart. i try so hard i do but is it good enough for me. is it enough? where can i fit in or where do i fit in this world. a world where money buys love and happiness or a world where money is not the answer, support and having each other's back instead of money? Help me i feel that my partner is only focused on money and nothing else. i am lost, hurt, and thinking about hurting myself. i am so very depressed. i am not worthy of nothing i see

[JAYnLA]

You are worthy of being alive or you wouldn't be here. Hang in there Blue. Better days through better ways are ahead.

[bluetazz1 in reply to JAYnLA]

thank you. i will try but its just so hard

[Hidden]

Take each day one at a time. I go through the same. Each time money comes around the one I am with becomes offended and controlling. You need to keep things steady for yourself and take care of yourself. You are the priority now. Your partner has money issues and you know how things are to be. Money isn’t the answer to happiness. I know that for sure. Especially like me when my partner says money makes her happy and buying things. A sad life they have, not us. Please don’t feel down on yourself. You are the stronger one here. Keep that in mind. You have our support here. 😊

[bluetazz1 in reply to Hidden]

thank you. i will try, but its so hard. i dont know what to do i am lost so lost. i wrote how i felt and all to my partner since i cant get nothing out when i verbally talk. my partner comes and talk but still not understanding but telling me that they do. i dont see it and it hurts is my love and happiness with them not good enough. i have to pay for love and happiness now. i am still thinking about it and the farther i fall. what are so good thing to do to turn or stop before it geta to far with my depression

[Hidden in reply to bluetazz1]

When you get to the part it results with depression the other individual should know how much they are affecting you. If they don’t they will just keep on doing what they are doing. If they do, there is a better chance they will change their ways so you are not in the position you are. Remember this isn’t your problem so don’t try to put so much on yourself. Please take care of yourself. 🙂

[hypercat54]

Money doesn't buy happiness or love, only being your true self and comfortable in your own skin can do that. Though as my mother said it's better to be miserable in comfort. x

[bluetazz1 in reply to hypercat54]

thank you. i will try, but its so hard. i dont know what to do i am lost so lost. i wrote how i felt and all to my partner since i cant get nothing out when i verbally talk. my partner comes and talk but still not understanding but telling me that they do. i dont see it and it hurts is my love and happiness with them not good enough. i have to pay for love and happiness now. i am still thinking about it and the farther i fall. what are so good thing to do to turn or stop before it geta to far with my depression

[hypercat54 in reply to bluetazz1]

In a healthy relationship no one should feel they have to pay for love and happiness. Is yours a healthy relationship? If not you need to either start changing it or adjust to living with it. Of course money is important but it shouldn't be the basis for any relationship. If it is then that isn't true love. x

[bluetazz1 in reply to hypercat54]

thank you. will try but its so hard

[pink318]

Hello- I’m sorry you are going through a hard time. Please stay strong and I hope that things will go well with you and your partner.

Please stay in the forum, I hope you will be encouraged by the replies here and you will feel the support you need. Please don’t hurt yourself. Praying for peace be upon you. I hope to hear from you again. God bless.

[Runningfargal]

I’m glad you reached out. I know it’s hard, I spend my hardest days here, giving, seeking and receiving support. You are worthy of love and support and appreciation that is given freely and without a cost. You get that here but you also deserve that from your partner. I agree with the above responses in questioning your relationship. It doesn’t sound healthy. You deserve the right to make it healthier, an effort on both sides, and you deserve to leave if it cannot be improved. YOU are WORTHY. Best to you.

[Boxend]

I drift in and out of deep depression, isolate, hide from the world, avoid social interactions, can't get any work done ect. But never let it trick you into hurting yourself. You recognize your slipping into a cycle of deep depression and the crap I mentioned above that comes with it. Hurting yourself is not a solution. Roll with it, try to find something to distract yourself which I know is hard when depressed nothing seems interesting or worthy, I sleep alot because of it, if you need to sleep do it. Keep writing on this site, message people on here, strike up a conversation. Hope this helps.