situational depression & medication increasements

[misselim]

hello!

to start off: i’ve been seeing my psychiatrist for the past 7 years. i have had to be hospitalized 6 times with end that period. in total i have suffered from clinical depression, anxiety and psychosis. so he is very aware of how i act and carry myself when depressed.

i’ve been doing much better. for nearly 2 years (since january 2018) i’ve been on the same medicine (effexor, lamictal, trazodone, invega) i have actually been able to come off invega- so pretty stable.

these past couple of months have been very hard on me. i had a family member move in who i’ve had previous issues with. today i ended a long term relationship on not so great terms. i have an appointment tuesday and i’m sure what to say. i am very much depressed. i’m sure it’s situational but i don’t really know if i need my medication increased at this time. i’m sure the doctor knows whats best, but even with my appointment earlier this month i kept how i felt mostly to myself. and i know i won’t be able to conceal how i feel after todays bombshell- i’ve been bursting into tears periodically. i’d feel like a failure if i relapse and up the dosage.

anybody else been in this situation? how did it turn out for you?

thanks for reading my post : )

[Dolphin14]

I'm so sorry for your struggles.

Please don't feel like a failure. You are not a failure. Life is going to rock the boat on our illness at times. Catching the symptoms and treating them early is key.

There's no failure in needing more meds because your life is upside down right now.

Focus on what you need to do to feel better and enjoy your life. More meds, more therapy, etc nothing to be ashamed of.

In fact it's very brave of you to step out and talk about it and acknowledge it.

It shows all of us that struggle that when we have a set back we have to do whatever it takes to stabilize things.

Take care of yourself.

[misselim in reply to Dolphin14]

thank you, your kind words help : )

i wish the best for you

[Dolphin14 in reply to misselim]

Just remember we have an illness that is like living on a rollercoaster. So many ups and downs. It's not our fault that this happens., it's the illness.

Be honest in therapy so you can maximize your treatment.

We will be Ok. Keep saying that