Am I crazy or just have major anxiety

[Ceaser_Leone]

So I started my new job today but I still had some fearful moments. They bought us lunch today and I been really nervous about eating and the nausea, so i didnt have the nausea but I went to the bathroom and after I was done my stomach was feeling funny, then I looked at myself in the mirror and I could notice the weight loss, and I immediately got scared and freaked internally, I began asking myself what is wrong with me. Im home now and want to eat again because i havent ate since 12 but my mind just keeps messing with me? but i really wanna eat. how long before things go back to normal???!!!!! I have been listening to positive affirmations all day, because I really need my job to get bills caught up, I have been inmy apartment with no water for a week and I have to get it together

what do i do

please help you guys are my support system and you all really help me make it through tough times and I am thankful to call you all my friends

[CatIsMyCopilot]

Regarding eating:

Try to remember that your anxiety is lying to you: it's sending your brain the same signals it would receive if you had e.g. stomach flu. That would be a real reason you couldn't eat. But you don't have stomach flu. It's just a coincidence that anxiety is making you feel you can't eat, essentially.

I remember for me this was incredibly difficult, but you have to start to take that leap of faith and decide to ignore what your brain and body (controlled by anxiety) are telling you. This is incredibly unnatural and difficult at first. You have to say "No, that's wrong, I can eat", and then eat anyway. Slowly, don't gorge yourself or cause more upset. But get a nice protein-rich meal in front of you and take bites slowly until you're finished, or at least 2/3s done.

Regarding not eating:

Try not to worry too much about it. Don't get me wrong, I think you'll feel better if you do eat, and as mentioned above, I want you to try. But a skipped meal here and there won't harm you too much. If you're losing *a lot* of weight, then maybe check in with your doctor.

Proud of you for surviving your first day, while anxious no less! Good job!

[Ceaser_Leone in reply to CatIsMyCopilot]

Thank you so much, I was 198 then I was 181 now Im 173 but i cant pinpoint the timeline of how fast it may have went. I have a salad here when i get paid i wanna go grocery shopping to get the things I need for a healthy balance diet. Thank you for your kind words it really motivates me, i used to being the strong one for everyone so this really new for me and I dont know how to handle it fully

[Dolphin14]

So glad you made it through day one. It will get easier.

Please try some small frequent meals. Get some nourishment in small amounts it won't feel as overwhelming to your body.

[Ceaser_Leone in reply to Dolphin14]

Thank you it is something i need to implement

i believe it would a lot i feel so bloated now i scared to lay down

[Dolphin14 in reply to Ceaser_Leone]

You will be ok. Use a couple pillows if you have to. Keep your head up a bit.

Do some deep breathing.

Try and get some rest.