Anxiety

[Rlost]

I hate this feeling. I have a therapist I see once a week, and we work on ways to cope with anxiety, but it's so hard for me to be calm when I'm about to have a panic attack. I can't even go shopping on my own. I have social anxiety, but I also experience anxiety when I'm alone. It's been almost a year that I've been fighting with myself. In the beginning, I couldn't get out of my house. I would lock myself in my room whenever we had family over. I had nonstop panic attacks that were killing me. My therapist has helped me a lot, but I still don't feel like I use to, when I didn't worry about anything. I started to work a month ago, and it's been a rollercoaster. Sometimes I want to leave my job; I feel this fear of losing myself. I try to be positive. I have so much faith, I do think one day I will be in peace, or I'll die. I want peace, peace in my thoughts, my life.

[UFC80]

I can relate as i go through it too! 😣 I see a Therapist and feel like it only helps so much! Cognitive Behavioral Therapy i use with my therapist too. I seem to like distractions as they mix up things in my life and keep me going still. By distractions i mean eating different, dietary change. Excerisize this helps me alot! 😊 Giving back to myself, self care and trying to maintain it. Keep the contact going like with your therapist and support like here. 🤗

[Rlost in reply to UFC80]

It is hard specially since nobody in my family understands me. They think I am lazy and want to be this way

[UFC80 in reply to Rlost]

My own sister thinks that im lazy also. The rest of my family after visiting me in the psych ward believes how hard things are for me.

[Hollick]

Feel your pain, so sorry, I have felt that kind of darkness..hope that God is looking down upon us and offers a helping hand. Take care the best you can, try and stay hopeful. There is a light at the end of the tunnel. Prayers for us, and everyone that is struggling.🙏

[Suzhou]

It’s hard because if you keep doing the same thing. You will keep getting the same outcome. Something has to change. Do you have a pet. I have a dog and when I have a bad day sometimes I just sit on the couch with her and we chill. Maybe you do need to find another job. If it’s not helping you in life. Then you need to find another option.

[Hidden]

I sympathize completely with your situation. Many people do not understand what it feels like to be mentally spent, beaten, or controlled. My favorite comparison or epiphany for those is this...I tell someone I have anxiety, panic disorder, and occasionally some depression.

Them: "OH, I had a panic attack (or anxiety attack) a few times. When I drive over a high bridge or (insert whatever here), I get very anxious. I know what that's like."

Me: "No, no, this is different. Take what you experienced in those moments of the worst part of your experience and now do this all day, every day, for as long as you live as far you know. That is what my experience is like. Some days are better, some are worse. Sometimes just doing menial daily tasks are 'a big day' for us."

Them: "Wow, you feel like that all day long? There's no way, they have medicine for that."

Thankfully I have made this relation to several people in my family, friends, and others. Occasionally they might "get it". "Okay, he's having one of the bad days...let's not harp about the dishes he didn't do or maybe understand why he couldn't make this family dinner tonight." You aren't alone and you don't have to do what I do in explaining it. You are absolutely right....there are plenty of days where I do what I can around my house (when I'm not working....one place where anxiety just loves attacking me!) and try to relax when I'm not doing chores. It certainly is tough and I hope your faith aids you.

If you aren't already, the best you can do it utilize what you do have: options to expand your anxiety/panic tool belt. I don't think the outside community does a good enough job....even my psychiatrist sort of rolled her eyes when I told her I use acupuncture (which, placebo or not, helps a lot). Mindfulness sessions with a soothing voice guiding you to them, not the panicked thoughts. Medication, both fast-acting and long-term. Acupuncture, bi-lateral stimulation apps (I don't get why they work, but they do), music therapy, breathing techniques, prayer, and even working with your therapist to stop resisting panic as much as accepting it and letting it go. I'm sure you know all of this; I'm not trying to lecture as much as say I hope you can eventually start getting a little more of yourself back. I know those days where just sitting inside seems like the safest best thing we can do. But the reason we feel that way is exactly what panic and anxiety exist...to get us to safety. Keep that positive thoughts, keep the faith, and leave room for hope. Wishing you the best and promising that you aren't alone in all of this. Take care for now and never forget to leave some kindness for yourself

[Essentiallyfree]

I know this reply is late.. but let your faith take control of your fear. Call your fear out and denounce it friend. Fear like this is crippling, I completely understand and I'm so sorry you're experiencing it. But this fear is a tactic from the enemy to isolate you because you have such great potential to expose him. I'm praying today that you have the strength to keep on and that you allow God's peace to rest on you. I hope you're doing better today.