Hello everyone! It’s been like forever since I posted here and thought I’d give a little update on things!
I do believe that now I can say I’ve beaten depression! I’m over a year clean now and have been doing exceptionally well mentally, at least with the hopelessness and whatnot. I have a very very loving boyfriend and my family has become much more supportive of me through all of this. They’ve especially been very supportive of me knowing that I’m going to be in a rough spot soon. My dear is heading to Marines boot camp in a few weeks and let’s just say, I have attachment issues. Big time. I’m doing my best to stay strong for him and make sure he knows he’s got my full love and support. I think it will be a good thing in the long run!
Another development in my life is that I am now a senior in high school! I’m so ready to start my new life in a new place once I’m graduated and go off to college for cosmetology! It’s very exciting for sure!
Finally, I should discuss the mental state I am in at this moment. Recently, my anxiety has become an issue again, mostly due to (this is gonna be pathetic, but...) storms. Where I live, storms that can be HORRIBLY destructive happen so often and it scares me being away from my home and family when stuff like this happens. I go into full panic mode and leave work earlier, if I’m even at work that day. My phobias and anxiety combined have become too much for me recently, so I set out to find help. I’m now back on anti-anxiety medication, which hasn’t really made a difference just yet, but it’ll take time, and I am also going to be attending Cognitive Behavioral Therapy for both the anxiety and the phobias. Hopefully this will help me become more relaxed and live a life free of fear of things totally out of my control. I know that all of this stuff is happening for a reason and that God has a plan for me. This rough patch might be a test for my strength and willpower, and I’m doing my best to prove both of them. I have hope everything will be just fine if I keep fighting!
Anyways, I hope everyone here is doing well and that you are all fighting the good fight! Much love! ❤️