I keep posting but I’m just not feeling too great

[Danzdanz123]

I was doing quite well with my phobias it was just a lot of physical anxiety I was getting in the last month then obviously not nice things have happened I know a few people that have completely lost their minds (one of them being my dad) and it scares me so much it’s this horrible dark feeling I feel sick to my stomach I’m so scared of it happening to me! Two of the people that I know that have lost their mind have actually harmed people. I keep thinking that what if it happens to me and I hurt someone

[XoxoFaith]

Really this is something that scared me to go crazy can you explain more what did they have ?? Did they have anxiety and depression that they lost there minds or what

[Danzdanz123 in reply to XoxoFaith]

No they had like psychosis, schizophrenia and bipolar even just typing out these conditions scare me I’ve researched and apparently you can’t loose your mind with anxiety or depression but it still freaks me out

[Danzdanz123 in reply to XoxoFaith]

But what I advise you not to do is research symptoms of these conditions because it will not help your anxiety at all anxiety tries to trick your brain xx

[Trying1268]

The first step to being better is knowing that you need help. You are already on your way! Do you currently have a therapist to talk to about these feelings you are having?

Also, Just because you know someone that went crazy does not mean you will go crazy. Just because your Dad, as you say went crazy, does not mean that you, will go crazy, it does not work like that.

Those people may not have had the help that they needed to be well. You on the other hand can be strong and make it through this.

You are not alone.

Be well.

[Danzdanz123 in reply to Trying1268]

Thank you I was supposed to be having therapy in summer but covid happened and they couldn’t do my second assessment and I got stuck with this women that wasn’t very good and then she discharged me I’ve been meaning to pay for therapy as I think it’s a better option but it’s very expensive and thank you i think from just witnessing it it’s traumatised me I think too much and empathise a lot xxx

[BlueMoon29]

I understand your concern. I try to keep those thoughts out but sometimes I get scared that I'm going to completely break, like I'm just waiting for it. I think it's just the anxiety doing it's dirty work. When mine is high I get all kinds of horrible thoughts but that's what it does, picks at your deepest fears. Realistically though I know I'll be fine and you will too. People with more severe issues are at risk. Keep getting help and if you are on meds take them or if you feel you need them then don't be afraid to get some.

[Danzdanz123 in reply to BlueMoon29]

Thoughts are the worst and it’s the feelings that accompany them that are even worse thank you I am not on medication I’m actually too scared to take medication I was put on sertraline but it was one of the worst experiences I was getting extreme panic attacks so I never took them again i think I just need some form of therapy xx

[Danzdanz123]

It’s awful honestly especially if you witness someone’s mental health decline! It’s so scary I’m glad you have found music I think movies are mine music can help too! X

[BlueMoon29]

I personally don't like medication either besides my valium. I found group therapy helped me the most because you feel less alone and more "normal". Once you realize other people have had the same or similar experiences and thoughts it grounds you and makes you feel like it will be ok. Plus I made some great friends from it too. Right now they probably aren't offering that so until they do just stick to these forums and seek out individual therapy, they're the next best thing.

[Danzdanz123 in reply to BlueMoon29]

Thank you for the advice I really appreciate it I feel like telling an anxious person to take medication makes them more anxious lol I just don’t want it to take over my life again it sucks. I will definitely look into group therapy I think feeling grounded is definitely what i need xx

[BlueMoon29 in reply to Danzdanz123]

Yea I feel ya on that, had my own issues with meds. Hope you find what you need. We're here for you! 😊

[Danzdanz123 in reply to BlueMoon29]

Thank you xoxo

[Danzdanz123]

They make me feel normal xoxo