Why my minds talk two ways? How should i know what I really want with my life?

[Horizon_123]

Hello there! i'm new here

Currently I am unemployed for almost one and half year. I think I don't like teaching ,in which i had wasted my five years in getting that degree and teaching for 2 yrs.

Part of my minds say , "Go and Get a job". But whenever I sat on PC for job hunt (teaching). I feel lethargic, depressed, my mind says , "i don't want to do any job", i feel like crying. What should i do?

Is it okay for me if i gave some time to myself and don't lookout for job because i know career gap doesn't look good in resume?

sometimes i thought may be its just my lack of confidence or anxiety that is holding me back for choosing teaching profession , but at the same time it says that " i am not accepting the reality that i failed as a teacher". PLEASE HELP. I am totally confused.

[Dreamie]

Yes it’s ok that you have given yourself some time to be relieved of the stress of work. I just started working in a school this last year and it apparently isn’t uncommon for new teachers (or teachers period) to become disenchanted and over-stressed in the career. Personally I have had to choose lower stress jobs due to my anxiety and depression. But having a job is essential to my self esteem and mental health (and I need an income). I believe you will feel better if you do get a job, even if it’s not what you originally planned to do/teach. Be willing to try something different. If you still like the education field look for a less stressful position. Think outside the box as they say. I know you are worried about the gap in your resume. I had a short one too last year and I worried about it. But for me it didn’t even come up at the interview. Whew! I’d have a script in mind in case it does come up though. Something positive, confident and brief. Try not to worry about it because there is a place for you in the working world and once you get back at it you’ll feel much more confident. It’s ok (and very common) that our original plans don’t work out the way we thought they would. Hugs and well-wishes for you! 💗

[Horizon_123 in reply to Dreamie]

yes ,am confused right now ,may be I came back to same path after realising what's best for me. Thanks for support😊

[Hidden]

Hi. It’s definitely fine to give yourself the time to figure out what you want to do with your career. It isn’t easy continuing to work a job that you don’t feel happy in and it’s okay to say it out loud and choose to change it. A gap in employment may not even come up in a future interview so try not to pre-stress yourself over that when you don’t have to. Don’t prepare for that type of negativity when you’re not even there yet. It’s okay. I was in banking for 12 years and I quit my job as bank manager last Nov. After losing my father last May and hitting rock bottom, I took a leave from work. When I went back my employees were so unsupportive and upper management could care less. So I told them fine, I’m going home to make pancakes for my kids, packed my things and quit! Never felt better...life is way to short to be unhappy in a career field. Sometimes our plans are not God’s plans and that’s ok too. But please don’t beat yourself up. You didn’t waste time getting your degree and teaching. You educated yourself, learned a lot and figured out it’s not for you. Now take your next chapter and do what feels good.

[Horizon_123 in reply to Hidden]

thanks for ur support. It makes me mentally stronger.

[SuZQ154]

I understand. I took a break from teaching for four years and then went back. (Then I continued teaching for another 20 years.) Personally, I found I liked teaching children more than the other jobs. I wouldn't have appreciated teaching without that break.

Although that may not be your experience, taking a break may help you figure out your gifts, talents, desires, and purposes. You might want to check out this book "A Purpose Driven Life". It helped me! bit.ly/2Y1I8XL Hope it will help you!

[Horizon_123 in reply to SuZQ154]

thanks for responding and I surely read that link.

I want to know after taking break, you restart as fresher or apply with your previous experience

[SuZQ154 in reply to Horizon_123]

I just read this When I went back, I had a different perspective on teaching because then I was a mother My priorities were God, my husband, our children, and then my job. It made for a happy family, students, and life Blessings to you!