I'm... in a situation....
So, I am in a long distance relationship and we have videocalled one time now. We want to do it again soon, well especially he wants to. I really want to hear his voice and see him again too and I get really happy (especially afterwards), but also I am anxious about calling him like mostly at the start of the call and whenever he asks me when we will do it again. I never liked calling and I am socially anxious so I guess that's why I feel anxious about talking to him on the phone, but on the other hand I do want to call him because he makes me feel happy and he really wants so too so I don't want to be 'in the way'.
The first (and still last) time we videocalled, at the start, I got really nervous and I was overwhelmed (and blushing tbh) and I couldn't get a word out. The camera was actually not pointed at me but at the tv screen cause I was gonna play a videogame and he wanted to watch. But so he couldn't see me blushing and like being nervous so I could feel he felt a little awkward cause I wasn't saying anything, which is understandable btw cause there was a silence.
Later it got better and we were talking a little while playing the game. But I just don't want that to happen again, but I do want to hear his voice and see his face. I really love him alot and I know he loves me alot too. He actually helped me feeling better while being anxious before so maybe I should just talk to him about it and tell him how I feel. I don't want him to think that I don't want to call him though. Idk it may be not that big of a deal as I make of it and I may be overthinking again.
Well anyway, if you made it till here and could follow what I was saying then I would really appreciate it if you shared your opinion/advice.
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