Depression lingers.

[dbeck128]

I wont lie and say that mood stabilizer hasnt helped me, because it has. And I'm so thankful for it. But I cant shake this depression. It mainly gets worse at night, which is whatever... but it tends to make me sick to my stomach. I get so frustrated with myself because I cant get rid of it.

I dont even know if remission is possible anymore because I've tried so many meds. I'm so sensitive and I also cant take antidepressants because I have horrible side effects from them.

I want to have hope that this will get better, but sometimes I read posts on this site and get discouraged. I dont mean that negatively, but it can get me down.

I'm struggling I guess. Bad. And I wish I knew it was going to get better. I want to keep fighting, dont get me wrong. But I'm also extremely tired...

[Hidden]

You’re not alone. It seems like everything gets worse at night ? Idk why.. and seeing some of the posts are a little discouraging sometimes( even some of the things I’ve posted feel a little counterproductive) but I hope things do get better for both of us, I’m tired too.. but I know there are days ahead that will be better and that’s what keeps me going most the time, it’s hard to accept that we may have to learn to live with these bad days to get some of the good but I do honestly believe there is good in our future

[dbeck128 in reply to Hidden]

I'm also counterproductive. A while ago things were really going up hill for me. Now I've just kinda went down and kind of just evened out into this depression.. better than it was. But I'm so angry that I've been through so many meds. And this is what I get to deal with... thank you friend. I will get through this. I just hope this slump isnt a forever thing.

[Hidden in reply to dbeck128]

Honestly it sounds really similar to me right now, thought I’d been doing good and in the last couple months slowly but surely back to being depressed. ( tonight was extra bad for some reason?)It really is frustrating, but I don’t think this slump is forever, it’s just our depression trying to convince us that it is.

[Dolphin14]

It's a roller coarser ride, ups and downs.

Have they tried SSRI and SNRI?

I'm on a mood stabilizer an antipsychotic ( very low dose) and an anti depressant. I feel like I have more better days now.

Mayb more med adjustment? I'm also very sensitive to meds so it gets a little tricky.

[dbeck128 in reply to Dolphin14]

I'm so tired of trying new medications I've been experimenting for 2 years now

I'm irritated with myself because I dont respond well to almost anything. Lamictal has been the only thing to ever help me with no side effects. Out of at least 15 meds at this point.

I want to try an antipsychotic but I've heard so many negative things. And I dont wanna be sedated. This is just so frustrating to me. I want to cry I'm so angry at myself

[dbeck128 in reply to dbeck128]

I've been on both SSRI SNRI. Yes, they make me so much worse.

[Dolphin14 in reply to dbeck128]

Yes, I've been on and off so many meds also. It's crazy.

I'm doing fine on the anti psychotic. It's stopped my daily crying which is huge.

People tend to shy away from them because they carry a stigma.

[Meowmeows2 in reply to Dolphin14]

Just started on a low dose of Abilify. I also take Tintellix and Busprione. Seems all I do is take pills. I lose my appetite when I'm depressed also.

[Dolphin14 in reply to Meowmeows2]

I'm on very low dose abilify as well.

It's been a couple months. I was increased a bit and couldn't sleep and I felt that was why so we just reduced the dose. Will see what happens.

Good luck with it

[Hidden]

Can i ask what mood stabilizer you take dbeck128 ?Cheers

[dbeck128 in reply to Hidden]

Its lamictal, 200 mg. Doc says it's the highest dose I can go. So I guess we will see what he has in mind for new meds to add on..

[Muddypawz in reply to dbeck128]

I’m on the same thing it it does help with the mood swings.

[clopez1514]

It will get better ❤️

[dbeck128 in reply to clopez1514]

Thank you. Its just hard to see that right now. :/

[clopez1514 in reply to dbeck128]

I agree.. I’m struggling as well but without faith what do we have. One moment at a time. ❤️

[Muddypawz]

I have the same problem with SSRI type antidepressants. I have or I should say had drug resistant depression. Dr recently put me on a new med called Trintellix. It’s new and unfortunately there is no generic so it’s expensive but for me it’s been a lifesaver.

[dbeck128 in reply to Muddypawz]

Isnt it frustrating? You read all these reviews and see how happy people have become.... and then you get this tiny glimpse of hope. Excited even, to take the medication and then it just makes you worse :(.

Thank you for sharing your input. What all has it done for you so far? And what's the price look like?

[Muddypawz]

It’s lifted my depression and it also states it prevents relapse. I’ve been on it a few months now and can say I haven’t had a relapse. It does run about $400 for a 30 day supply. That’s because it’s a new type of medication with no generic.

[Hidden in reply to Muddypawz]

Wow that’s expensive!

[Muddypawz in reply to Hidden]

I just read somewhere that some insurance does cover part of it and they’re are coupons out there as well.

[Hidden in reply to Muddypawz]

I’m in Australia we don’t have coupons. I’m glad it’s working for you.

[Hidden]

Holy crap...400 a month ... who can afford that? I also have tried a few meds. Feel like a guinea pig...very frustrating. I even thought of doing the gene test test where you can find out what works for you. My insurance doesn’t cover it and it is very expensive.

[Muddypawz in reply to Hidden]

I did the gene test which is how I found out the SSRI’s don’t work well for me which makes treatment more difficult. I found it extremely helpful in pointing me in the right direction for treatment. My insurance covered some of it so my out of pocket ended up being $300.

[Hidden in reply to Muddypawz]

Lucky you...at least you know what doesn’t work.

[Meowmeows2 in reply to Hidden]

I did the GeneSight test and it was helpful. I paid $330.Insurance paid the rest.

[Kkimm]

I am so sorry to hear this. I was helped by following a programme I devised myself from the Claire Weekes approach.

I have no idea if it would help you but you are welcome to message me and I will tell you more about it.

I have GAD which developed 2 years ago after a couple of life traumas. I also had depression. Both have gone after 2 years on Velafaxine 187.5 mg and following the programme.

It must be very hard to not be able to get rid of the depression and be sensitive to antidepressants. You presumably stuck with them for long enough. I had a lot of really horrible side effects at first but they went after around 3 months.

I really hope you can recover, my very best wishes.

Kim

[Thissucks37]

Have you tried Wellbutrin? It’s different. I also tried many medications and they only made me groggy and fat. Wellbutrin is the only med that has helped me.