Thought I had a break

[LucyKe]

Well I thought I was gonna have a small break from anxiety & depression, because i usually get a break during this time (Summer) but I recently had a cat scan & it came back abnormal so...just added worry & stress...smh

[Hidden]

Sorry to hear about symptoms coming back. Hopefully you can find some answers soon about the cat scan to help ease some of the stress.. I’m dealing with depression/ anxiety again too ( was doing good for a good while) sometimes I wonder why can’t the good times just last a little longer ? Lol

[LucyKe in reply to Hidden]

Ughhh ikr! Soon as you get some type of break here comes something waking the anxiety & depression up

[Hidden in reply to LucyKe]

Really though, its terrible when you think you’ve got it for a minute and then just comes crashing back down.. I’ve been told a couple times that it’s inevitable, like a flare up of any other illness that would affect your body ( our illnesses are just like that but affecting the mind ) it’s kind of a hard realization to live with, but I’m working on it

[Wolfangel7579 in reply to Hidden]

When I feel like I am finally feeling better I start to wonder when the other shoe will drop and I trigger myself. It's a never ending battle....

[Hidden in reply to Wolfangel7579]

yeah this cycle is very tiring at times.. like you said never ending battle, i just wish i had more days where im winning lol

[Wolfangel7579 in reply to Hidden]

Amen to that

[LucyKe in reply to Hidden]

It’s very sickening, I know we all are gonna go through things some worse than others, but sometimes I wonder why? It’s so many people out here that seriously don’t give a damn about life, abusing drugs/alcohol without a care in the world, then there’s us, trying to make it through the day

[Hidden in reply to LucyKe]

honestly i used to be that guy abusing drugs/ alcohol.. it was way to escape from my depression before i knew i had it and knew better.. i very much regret my wasted time, and how i treated myself and others then.. i was so very wrong in my ways. part of the reason i almost ended things a few year back.. i definitely know what you mean, it is sickening to see from the outside( like its a waste of good potential), but sometimes those people are more like us than you know.. trust me i agree with you, just sometimes things arent the way they seem

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

dont let my opinion/story shake up your anxiety and depression. i just like to be honest

[LucyKe in reply to Hidden]

You are definitely right, I don’t disagree I’m just on the outside looking in really trying to make some sense of my own struggle, I literally don’t do anything but try to stay healthy & find some peace & happiness, but yet I’m always stuck in the dark scared, worried, lonely crying in a dark corner

[Hidden in reply to LucyKe]

everyone’s struggle is different and yours is no less difficult or confusing than mine. its very hard to make sense of it sometimes. i too am in search of peace and happiness and trying to be healthy. that feeling of being stuck, afraid and alone, worrying what the future holds( or doesn’t ) for us. is something i very much understand.. sometimes i’ll cry from the feeling and sometimes i want to cry from the feeling but cannot. i hope we both can find our way through these stuggles and loneliness that our minds seem to make worse than it is for others.. just know in the least you are not alone, even if it does feel like it

[LucyKe in reply to Hidden]

Thank you, prayers up for you, our time is near.

[Hidden in reply to LucyKe]

thank you , that means a lot :).. i shall pray for guidance and peace for the both of us.

[Wolfangel7579]

Sending prayers your way.

[LucyKe in reply to Wolfangel7579]

Thank you I really need it, I’m really scared