Depresssion & Pessimism

[gleamx]

I have been lazy as it pertains to posting for quite some time, but I will elaborate. Lately I’ve noticed that almost everything in my life brings me no joy anymore. Everything from movies I used to love, listening to music, literally just about anything. It seems like my life is on mute and the remote is broken. I can remember being in elementary school and our school giving out optimism rewards, one year I actually received one. Lately it seems as though due to my depression it has been purely me being pessimistic about everything. The pessimism has hit so hard it actually drives me away from asking for help. I know it isn’t healthy, but I have closed myself off to a bunch of things in my life. When I leave work I basically come home and turn on the tv and put in a movie for background noise. I’m not the type to be suicidal or anything, but I really don’t have any joy to my life anymore and just go through the motions like tomorrow is another day, rinse and repeat. I don’t look forward to things anymore, I can go days without speaking, and leave all the lighting off at the house. I’m not sure where to begin to get out of this, I don’t have the drive or inspiration to fix it.

[Michdau1]

You do sound really low to be honest. It sounds really tough. It's a positive thing that you are aware of it and are looking for a way out. Some ppl might call that HOPE 😉

Just make one small change like putting the lights on or opening the curtains and window for fresh air and natural light. Its surprising how much that alone will help XXX what or who are you grateful for in your life? 😘

[optimuscoolbeans]

Man once again I gotta second michdau1’s post. Very good advice. The only thing I want to add is that motivation that just shows up out of the blue is far a few between. Most motivation comes through action. So start small. As michdau1 has said. That could jump start you. Many little actions will add up to great action over time.

[primrose81]

I know exactly what you mean, I still get over-anxious about going anywhere, I'm even feeling jittery about seeing one of my oldest friends this afternoon. I try hard not to overthink things but like you I rarely feel true joy and always veer to the negative side of things. Keep in mind your optimism award and give yourself points for even minor things. You did it once,you can do it again. Just please please don't beat yourself up over it, that's always been a problem with me! Hope you start feeling a bit better soon xx