Thank you’s & Updates & RANT

[Lovely_Lizzy_]

I first off wanna say thanks to everyone for supporting, you guys are a great community. I really have been going through it. One of you guys asked me what where some of the thoughts that I was having, when I posted my last post, so here’s a little insight. Lately I have been feeling completely and utterly worthless and without purpose, and I have been thinking back on what some people that I used to really care about have said to me.

I remember in another post a little while back I talked about how I have been losing people left and right since the beginning of the year. Now it’s gonna sound like a bunch of petty drama but this is real stuff for me, serious stuff that at times, have made death seem more appealing than life.

At the beginning of the year, I had my first break up, which hurt but it wasn’t as bad as it could have been seeing as we didn't get sensual. Even tho my ex cheated on me I cared about him and agreed to be his friend, until he became verbally abusive. When ever I was at a depressive low I would talk to him, and he would tell me to just end my life already, or that if I felt that I wasn’t worth anything that it was probably true, and many other nasty things. In February things started looking up when I entered a new relationship. Then they went back down hill again, in March.

I lost one of, if not the closest friend I had, later on my parents disapproved of my relationship and made us break up, of course I secretly still was with him. Then my second closest friend left me, and took most of my “friends” with her. Aside from one who switches between us, what’s the point of have a friend if they can’t always be there? Soon after that something happened to my boyfriend, he tried to overdose and was hospitalized, his mother took away all his contact from me and everyone else, online. (That’s not gonna help but whatever😒) I found out he lied about something’s, but we all lie, and he is mentally unstable. I know I have to be careful, but if I don’t love him who will? And plus he is really wonderful to me. Right now though, we aren’t able to contact one another and I don’t think we will be.

A lot of people say nasty things to me, cause I’m nothing like ur average girl. And because of my mental health complications , my thoughts tell me lies that I believe. And we all know it’s easier to listen to negative than it is to listen to positive.

Thank you guys once again if you made it this far, so sorry for typing so much

[Lovely_Lizzy_]

Love all of you ❤️💕

[Kkimm]

Hi Lizzy

So sorry to hear what a difficult time you are having. Just remember you are a worthwhile person and try to be strong and ignore all the horrible comments friends make.

As you have said yourself, they do it because of what they are going through.It is not about you but about them.

Very best wishes

Kim

[Lovely_Lizzy_ in reply to Kkimm]

That is very sweet and I will try to keep that in mind, thank you ❤️

[Kayakin]

Lovely_Lizzy_ you are a beautiful and pressious person. At some point you may be like me, and look back on hurtfully things that people did to you and realize that the you should feel sorry for them. It was not about you at all, but their insecurities and failings that they did not know how to deal with.

You are a wonderful person who is insiteful and full of promise. You will overcome these petty things and shine brightly. You are intelligent and failure is just a learning opportunity. Keep your eye on the great future you have. You remind me of my precious sister when she was your age. She was so much like you and went on to accomplish so much. She founded an organizstion to help Intercity children, and then became a college professor. She used to say every picture of us when we were children showed me protecting and caring for her.

You can think of me protecting you, becsuse you are worthy and will go on to accomplish things that will make the world a better place. The struggles you deal with will give you the strength.

[Lovely_Lizzy_ in reply to Kayakin]

Aww stop ur making me blush, thank you so much, that’s really makes me feel good! ❤️

[optimuscoolbeans]

That’s a lot to be going through. I am sorry that you are feeling that you are without purpose. I think that you have purpose just posting on here. You have no idea how much your messages are reaching others. I for one feel that connecting with others with similar problems, similar stories, similar hurts and hopes is purpose enough.

[Lovely_Lizzy_ in reply to optimuscoolbeans]

That’s a good point 🙂

[Hidden]

No apologies needed for typing too much Very glad to know your story...it takes incredible strength to do so; this especially with all that you've been through. I'm very glad to hear you're in a better place now. We're always here if you need an ear so let the words flow...no word count when support and kindness is needed

[Lovely_Lizzy_ in reply to Hidden]

Aww that’s sweet!

[Lovely_Lizzy_]

Promise to keep you all posted! ❤️