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[butter_flyyy]

Hello

It’s my first time joining support groups, hope it helps. It’s just that I do not have people around me to talk, and I can’t figure what’s wrong with me.

The thing is that when I was a kid everything was cool, I was pretty promising in a sense of a career, kinda A student, lots of extra curricular and stuff. But then something’s gone wrong. I can easily miss the deadline even though the thing is really important to me. I failed exams and things, even though I know I could’ve cracked them. I can’t understand what’s wrong. It feels like I’m kinda not here. Not controlling, concentrating, just letting it all pass by me. I got depressed and nervous, still I can’t figure that out. It feels like everything is wrong, and I’m just a screwup.

Would be grateful for support y’all. Dm if possible

Thanks

[Agora1]

Welcome butter_flyyy , it's nice to have you here.

It sounds like somewhere along the way, you gave up.

The reason that only you know is what is holding you back.

You're not a screw up, that's for sure. Your past record shows

that. Depression can do this to a person. Therapy can help you

find the root of this cause. Something changed in your life that

caused you to change your desire to go forward. Has there been

any issues that might contribute to your nervousness and depressed

feeling?? There's always a reason behind our feelings.

I'm glad you are here. I hope you find the help you need by talking

with others who share your experience. Know that we care. xx

[butter_flyyy in reply to Agora1]

Thank you very much for support!

[bandicoot1987]

You are certainly not a screw up. There are plenty of people out there in the same situation that can probably relate to everything you've said.

Even opening up to someone will be a help, make sure you interact with as many people on here as possible. Take a step back breath and try again. If you are concerned about your mood though you must see a doctor.

I hope and pray you find answers ❤️ sending lots of love xx

[butter_flyyy in reply to bandicoot1987]

Thank you!

[sweetiepye]

When you're a kid there's nothing really riding on the outcome of your endeavors. Mostly we enjoy what we do or we don't do it. Then comes adulthood, the game changer. Someone is always assessing or judging us so maybe this is your way of avoiding that. I don't think you are a screw up otherwise you wouldn't care. Some things to think about are when you first noticed this, does it affect all areas of your life, does the risk factor challenge you ? Are you a perfectionist ? Better not to do anything at all than to do something wrong.There will be an answer there you just need to ask the right questions. Pam

[butter_flyyy in reply to sweetiepye]

Good notice, thank you!

[argh52]

Wanting to get better is the first step in getting better. Asking for help is the second. Have you considered a therapist? Asking a doctor if those cognitive changes might be indicative of something or treatable?

Welcome. Be strong.