The anxiety and crazy feelings got stirred up again

[Kat63]

I started feeling anxiety again while I was visiting my aunt. I think that’s because I tried to talk to her about my anxiety, and my fear of losing my mind - and she just doesn’t get it. Silly me for thinking she would.

Don’t get me wrong - she and my uncle were very kind to me. But I just got reminded - again - that so very few people understand what happens to people like us. What our own minds do to us.

People who care about us *want* us to be OK - so they try to convince us that we don’t have a problem; we’re not really going crazy; that what we’re feeling is normal. But that attitude is scary to me. It’s like they’re saying, “We want you to be OK, so you *are* OK. Take our word for it, over your own feelings.”

So in the car on the way home, I had an anxious meltdown. Because I was driving, I didn’t want to take any Ativan.

My stomach was a little upset; but when I got home, my bf had ordered us a pizza for dinner, with my favorite toppings. So I ate a piece anyway. I have a headache, too. I think I’m going to wait about another 30 minutes for my stomach and my head to feel better, and then take an Ativan.

[Agora1]

Hi Kat63, I'd have a headache after that too. It's always very nerve wrecking

when trying to explain to someone what we are feeling. Enough so that we

get anxious just talking about it. Once that thought is in your mind, it's hard

to wind down and so you got a headache. Have something to eat, take your

Ativan and just relax the rest of the evening. You did good. xx

[Coralrose5]

Kat, my therapist told me that if I was going to “go crazy” or lose touch with reality it would have happened by now (I’m 32). My mother has delusions and is very paranoid and I often fear I will turn out the same way. Also when I go to therapy they have us fill out a questionnaire that asks if you feel like “you’re going to go crazy”, it’s a common fear in GAD because our minds can race so much. Just a perspective that no, you’re not going crazy. I fear this all the time as well because I experience depersonalization/derealization.