What to do next?

[Hopeful_wish]

Hello

I haven't been here in a while, but anywho I'm doing better but struggling. Everyday is a challenge for me, I've been out of the house more these past few months than before, and it has made me happy.

I'm just amazed at how much work I still have left to do. I'm mad at myself because I cant even stand to order food in store. My hands get all sweaty and shaky, my legs feel weak, and then by the time I make it to the desk I'm coaching my self to face forward and not fall.

I'm wondering what made this come about, my family knows of my struggles, but they arent as receptive. Which as a result it makes me share less.

I'm just overwhelmed a little bit and wondering how and when I'll be over this. The truth is that this is just a taste of what I go through. Everyday is a battle.

-blessings 🌷

[Urchin_girl]

Hello ... I think we beat ourselves up sometimes trying to figure out why.. sometimes it is evident sometimes not.. if not it’s just the disease... if u have been taking your medication using your tools doing your self care..,maybe you just need to vent??? I journal .. sometimes that gives me insight.. I try not to get mad at myself for what I can’t do... I recently discovered one challenge a day works well for me..talking here helps me ... keep at it.. and remember that those that don’t suffer have a difficult time understanding how to help.. they don’t mean to make things worse they just don’t know better.. have you told your family and friends how they can be helpful??

[Hopeful_wish in reply to Urchin_girl]

I'm very new to this but I haven't been on any medication, as my counselor said there arent any. She did mention a need for a physical examine and to talk with my primary care for depression help, but honestly I'm scared to try it and not fully sure if its depression or everything . My thing is that what if the medication for depression changes who I am personality wise. I have an appointment next Thursday, so I guess I'll go from there.

I do journal sometimes. But I should probably do it more often. I often breath in and out for 4 sec when I have overly anxious moments. I'm also trying some meditation but it can be hard because my mind is always going. After the doctor I'm gonna try more dieting and exercise.

Thanks for your tips though do you ever feel blah and do not feel like writing though?

- blessings 🌷

[Urchin_girl in reply to Hopeful_wish]

Yes sometimes I don’t feel like writing sometimes I hate it lol

Odd your doctor said there are no medications .. sounds like anxiety ?? Do talk to your doctor.. I never found medication changed my personality but sometimes it is hard to find one that is right for you..mine is for depression and anxiety...my side effect is weight loss.. not awful lol

Exercise and healthy eating is a great start

[Hopeful_wish in reply to Urchin_girl]

That's the thing it wasn't my doctor. It was my counselor that told me no medications. Besides for depression.

So now I'm trying to see what a MD thinks I should do, wish me luck.

[Urchin_girl in reply to Hopeful_wish]

Gosh that’s odd .. many drugs for anxiety.. good luck with ur md..keep in touch...

[Dolphin14]

I agree with urchin girl.

I'm also stuck by your md's comment. That makes zero sense to me.

Healing the mind takes a long time. You have to be in it for the long haul to really work through the issues.

Sounds like you were isolating have anxiety and depression? I'm not diagnosing I'm comparing to myself. Not having a reliable support system doesn't help.

Keep pushing yourself a little more each day. Challenge yourself to do a little extra if you can. But don't push too hard.

Meditation and exercise helps me.

Are you in therapy? I would re visit the medication situation with the md.

Take care

[Hopeful_wish in reply to Dolphin14]

Yeah, I'm in therapy, but I haven't gone in a little bit. When I first went I thought okay I'm doing good, but then the last time I went it was like I had nothing to talk about.

I guess it gets rough before it gets any easier. Like I told urchin girl, I'll have to see what the MD suggest next week.

Thanks for your help!! Wish me luck

- blessings 🌷

[Dolphin14 in reply to Hopeful_wish]

Best of luck

When I go to therapy there's usually something in my week that I can bring up. So watch thing like how you react to thing people say etc. maybe something that is sticking in your head all week. Maybe an interaction with someone that didn't settle right. All these thing can be broken down and help you see it through different eyes.

I may also read an article that pertains to me. And bring that up. There's lots of ways to use the time and get more insight.