Feeling low

[If-only2020]

Hi guys.. new to all this but hopefully i can get some good advice.. iv suffered from anxiety and depression for as long as i can remember.. i have never got any help as i dont like doctors,, hospitals,, detist, ect,, they are a fear with my anxiety. Im 30 years old.. i cant remember the last time i went to the docs. Think it was the 90s.. never held a job or claimed a benifit. Anxiety as run my life.. i fear doin so meny things. Simple things such as goin in public places. Asda. Buses.. even the local corner shop... i just dont understnd why i cant do these things. And why anxiety takes over me wen i do try to do something.. cant sleep at night and my head never turns off.. people talk to me and sometimes i just drift off,, or watching tv i dont even know whats happend.. i fear everything phone calls talking to people i font know. i dont even know why i fear these things but i just do. I have a bad drinking problem as its the only time that i seem to feel normal.. i realy cant take my life and this is nothing i could be here all day.. i need to change,, stop relying on poeple and man up. Just find it hard.. who can i see for advice. And can this advice come to me.. i feel that my lifes just goin to get worse and i end up on the street. And i know it would be hard to come back from that.. please comment any advice is appreciated..

[Bipolar2]

I too have suffered for as long as I can remember, but you have to take the first step. I was a few years younger than you when I finally took that step, and it was hard! Asking for help is humbling, but you survive. Acknowledging that you need help is biggest hurdle!

[Dreamie]

I am so sorry for all that you are suffering. You are definitely not alone. Mental illness such as anxiety disorders and depression are serious and we must take them seriously and get the help we need. Personally I have been in and out of talk therapy for many years. I’ve also been in a 2-week intensive day program before. And I’ve been taking antidepressants for over half my life. All these things have been helpful. I’ve learned a lot about this vast and mysterious condition and that has helped too. Reaching out to others is a good thing. Glad you’ve found a starting place. You can improve and feel and do better. Keep taking small steps.

[Joanne1972]

I think trying to see a gp would be a good start, you could ask for a home visit although you may have to wait a bit longer for an appointment or you could ask the surgery if there is a quiet room you could wait in rather than the busy waiting room.

I know every one is different but I've really responded to medication. its helped me see things differently and could help you see some of your fears differently. Maybe medication will help you so that you won't need to use alcohol to medicate yourself.

I guess if anxiety has kept you indoors so much you will probably do well with some specialist one on one help, your dr should be able to arrange that although waiting lists can be long.

I think it's good you've reached out and want life to get better. That's a great start

Good luck to you

Jo