Adjusting to Work

I just went back to work for the first time yesterday. I've missed so many days because of my depression. There are days when I can't imagine waking up and dealing with people so I give myself that distance. And when I do push myself to go in on the days I know I probably shouldn't, I almost always regret it because I'm not in control of emotions and it shows. I'm still working on it, and I think the more I keep myself in a state of awareness and try to take even a brief moment to myself, it gets better. I stop to journal and meditate and I feel like it gives me the clarity, even briefly, to make some better decisions. Anyway, I don't know if anyone else struggles with going to work and dealing with depression but just wanted to get this off my heart. Hope you guys are doing okay today :o)

[kenster1]

hi I was working December 17 we found out our dad had cancer and he passed april 18 I had nearly the whole of april off for bereavement and went back 29th I think it was.my anxiety was full blown all that time and depression not far behind and I had a breakdown soon after I went back.i never had any days left to take so had to keep working and at times it was a real struggle .I enjoyed the actual work itself and that probably got me through along with some of my colleagues.hopefully after a few days it will seem like you've never been away.if you find it hard though speak to your boss about it sooner rather than later.good luck.

[Hidden in reply to kenster1]

Thank you, Ken <3 I'm so sorry for your loss. It takes incredible strength of character to keep going morning after morning. You inspired me today. I will definitely be reaching out to my boss so he's aware of my situation. Here for you too :o)

[Hidden]

I do. I love my job but lately I don't have patience with a fellow nurse I am over. She is driving me crazy. My blood pressure is up. All I want to do is drink and eat. I can't take it. I'm gonna go off on her one day and it won't be good because I run the office but I can't take the stress at home and at work. Work used to be my happy place but I can't deal with stupid lazy workers who don't give a crap in a place I have passion for. I get it. I am right there. I just have to keep my cool or my boss will look down on me for being a bully but my job is ten times harder with someone I have to fix mistakes for all day long.

[Agora1 in reply to Hidden]

I'm so sorry Mel... xx

[Hidden in reply to Agora1]

Thank you. I will figure it out. I just wish my boss would fix the problem. He sees it and says don't let her do anything but that doubles my work load and just makes it easy on him. I just wish everyone would care about their jobs and give it their all like I do.

[Agora1 in reply to Hidden]

Maybe in a perfect world Mel..

I hope you figure it out. Nobody is worth affecting your health. xx

[Hidden in reply to Agora1]

Thank you. I know. I just put everything into my career because home life is so bad so it's disappointing when it becomes hard at work too.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

I really relate to this. It seems like in every job I have there is always that one person on the team that makes life harder because they're too carefree and lazy. I mean it. I've left jobs because I've gotten fed up, but only to find it again at my next one. It's really tough especially when you love what you do the way you seem to. I feel like after so many of these kinds of coworkers there's a lesson I'm supposed to learn, but we just do our best to keep going. I guess we can never know what someone else may be going through. I hope things work out, Mel <3

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Thank you😊

[Want2BHappy3]

I had a full on break down from my anxiety n Depression, I had to retire early. It's been over 2 years, trying to find a job, it's been difficult because of my age, 64. Tired of being rejected, I'm waiting to hear from a interview from this past Tuesday then got called back for a second interview yesterday They said they liked my personality and we're impressed by my skills. I really need this job, I've spent half of my savings which was suppose to last the rest of my life? I hope your in counseling?

[Hidden]

Hi Want2BHappy, I’m so sorry to hear that. It truly is a constant struggle. I’ve gone back to counseling this week and I’m on my way to feeling better. I just need to make sure I’m always putting my mental health first and doing the work. Sometimes I forget that. I’m praying and hoping and sending all positive light to you that you get you get this job and keep pushing forward 💜

[knittingninja]

I wish you luck in your journey back to the working world. I am hoping to rejoin the workforce in August, but with a teaching job it would be hard to use some of the techniques you are successfully using to ground yourself and stay focused. So good for you for getting back to work and doing the best you can! If you have a supportive supervisor, I suggest sharing everything you feel comfortable sharing to help them understand where you are at. Remember, you don't have to share anything you don't want to, but keeping upper management in the loop is a smart move- in my opinion. Good luck on your journey back at work. Best to you.