What do you do when you feel incredibly proud of yourself on the inside, but outside of yourself, the consensus seems to contradict everything you’re feeling.
I can’t differentiate between my own usual negative self talk & what feels like a giant, collective finger pointing down at me & saying “you actually suck”.
It doesn’t seem fair.
It’s confusing & makes me really sad.
& I’m left feeling stupid for being so proud of myself.
Which makes me mad at myself & upset with everyone involved in that ***hole collective finger... imaginary or not.
It’s like the universe decided “no those good feelings aren’t for you, sorry”.
I don’t know... I’m just down. Right back where I was.
Thank you for listening ✨
I’m really thankful for this community ✨