Anxiety sucks

[You_Are_Loved]

Haven’t been on here much because I’ve been feeling a lot better, but recently my anxiety has been so bad! I’ve been stressed about the virus and finding a job and so many other things. Yesterday was my first day back at our church and everyone went. We didn’t really social distance but we were outside so it was a little better. But they had us get hand sanitizer and check our temperatures but I was still nervous going in. I was fine until the end. My stomach started hurting so bad and I felt dizzy so I sat down. But my anxiety got the best of me and I felt like passing out and I started feeling nauseous. I ran down the bleachers and threw up. Gosh it was embarrassing. But after that I felt better lol. Thankfully it was over and not very many people were there. But I mean I haven’t thrown up since I was very little and my anxiety was so bad it made me do that. I also haven’t been sleeping well or eating much idk why. I’m just tired of always being scared and worrying about every little thing. Even today I am scared because I’m going to take x-rays soon for my scoliosis. 😕

Thanks for letting me rant <3

Update: the x-rays were fine didn’t feel anxious at all.

[Hummingbirdfeeder]

That’s great news! I actually feel safer at medical appointments now because of the limited people and all the measures they are taking

[Hummingbirdfeeder in reply to Hummingbirdfeeder]

By the way, I meant to say that they are limiting the AMOUNT of people, not that people are limited! LOL

[You_Are_Loved in reply to Hummingbirdfeeder]

Yeah! They’re wasn’t many people and I felt safer. I’m normally super anxious at the doctors office because I’m scared that they’re going to say somethings wrong with me but getting x-rays aren’t as scary!

[Hidden]

Glad to hear you were doing better!

Anxiety is so difficult but after experiencing it, it makes us so much stronger! I know how you feel with the embarrassment lol! I threw up on one of my first days of work 😂

[You_Are_Loved in reply to Hidden]

Thank you! Awee dang that is embarrassing! 😦 Hopefully we don’t do that again haha!!

[Hidden in reply to You_Are_Loved]

Haha very embarrassing! Especially when the old woman who saw it happen told literally EVERYONE! 😂

[You_Are_Loved in reply to Hidden]

Oh Noo!!Really!!! Ahhh ahaha

[Hidden in reply to You_Are_Loved]

Yes ahahah! Was horrible lol and I got sent home lol

[You_Are_Loved in reply to Hidden]

Awee so it was because you were nervous? Haha

[Hidden in reply to You_Are_Loved]

It was because I didn’t eat breakfast lol, when i’m nervous in the mornings i won’t eat!

[You_Are_Loved in reply to Hidden]

Ohh okay yeah same here! I normally don’t eat breakfast because my stomach always hurts in the mornings but I have to force myself to eat.

[Anonymous798]

Hi, I’m so sorry that happened and that you feel this way. Your right. Anxiety sucks so much. I understand what you are going through. Once I was going to present in front of my class and I got so nervous that I burst into tears and my nose was running a lot. There were no tissues around. I was so embarrassed that I hid in the washroom for the rest of the day and refused to present. That presentation was barely worth anything for our mark. But the great thing is, is that most likely after a week or to nobody will remember that happened. Remember that what happened wasn’t your fault. You can’t control mental illness and you can’t control what it does to your body. You didn’t choose to have anxiety. I hope everything gets better for you and that you feel better. Have a lovely day.

[You_Are_Loved in reply to Anonymous798]

Hello! Awe dang yeah anxiety is a strange thing and makes us do weird things! Aha but thank you and I hope you have a good day as well 😊<3

[Anonymous798 in reply to You_Are_Loved]

Thank you. Anxiety is a very wild ride that feels like it will never end. Hopefully little by little we will both get better.

[You_Are_Loved in reply to Anonymous798]

Yeah I hope so! 🤗