Mama

[Infinite-space]

Mama I don't wanna feel this anymore I wanna breath in fresh air instead of feeling like I'm gonna take my last breath I wanna feel alive with a heart beat instead of a corpse walking around with nothing inside I wanna dream about a future instead of barely making it through the night hoping to never see the light I wanna scream for help at the top of my lungs but I don't want you to look at me like I'm someone crazy I want you to see me as someone who just needs help I want you to see me as someone who can be fixed instead of someone who is just broken I want you to see me as your daughter who is crying for help because all she can think about is taking her last breath Mama please help...please help me...

[Kkimm]

Hi Infinite-space

This is so powerfully expressed that I am nearly crying for you!

There will be millions of other young people who will be feeling like this also and you have put their feelings into words for them.

Is there a way you can help your mother to really read and understand your words?

Kim

[brokenlight]

I want to hug you ✨

I’m so sorry for your pain & suffering.

I wish you could share this with the person you wrote it to.

I have felt like this towards a parent before and currently actually so I feel you.

[Purpleblackdawg8]

That touched my spirit..I just want my mama to be there as well..Lovely

[Sillysausage234]

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[Kkimm in reply to Sillysausage234]

Brilliant, it's great to find music that reflects our feelings and experiences.

Have you or others heard these and can anyone relate to any of them? Perhaps send any other songs that get to the heart of what they are feeling and challenge the lack of sympathy and understanding about mental health problems.

Sia I'm in here

Sia Buttons

J Cash or Nine inch nails Hurt

Sia Free me

Dido Honestly OK

I can relate really well to all these but particularly Dido. At my worst with GAD I kept wanting to "feel safe in my own skin" again as the lyrics say.

My partner can relate so strongly to Hurt that he cried the first time he heard it.

Kim

[Sillysausage234 in reply to Kkimm]

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[Sillysausage234 in reply to Sillysausage234]

Love dido 👋😊

[Kkimm in reply to Sillysausage234]

God that's amazing, it brought tears to my eyes. Not often get that reaction the first time I've heard a song.

Kim

[Sillysausage234 in reply to Kkimm]

I love that version too I think us depressed people feel music 🎧 more than jo bloggs I.e.not depressed people 😁🎧🎼so gotta be a positive we have more empathy and deeper emotions ✌🏼

[Kkimm in reply to Sillysausage234]

Hi

Yes I agree. Thanks for sending the Kacey Musgraves song as well, it's also beautiful.

Kim

[Sillysausage234 in reply to Kkimm]

Your welcome kim and thanks for replying it’s a good excuse to listen to it again 😊🎶

[Sillysausage234 in reply to Kkimm]

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Im so sorry for your pain and hope for you love and healing 💕

[Infinite-space]

Thank you everyone for responding to my post it means the world to me that people can relate to me in any kind of way I've always thought about letting my mom read what I wright so she can see how I really feel inside but I have a fear that it's going to hurt her or that it's going to be to much for here do y'all have any advice on how to talk to your parents about your depression and them really understand?

[Kkimm in reply to Infinite-space]

Hi Infinite-space.

Perhaps you could show her the website with what you have written and people's replies to your posts if you think it could help.

Pick a time when you are both being positive with each other and you both have time and there are not likely to be interruptions. You could start by saying how much she means to you and how much she has always tried to help but you know how difficult it is for her. Then say you want to share something really important to you. You may also want to say it is a really good sign that you can share such strong negative and scary feelings on a website because expressing these feelings is good and a sign of recovery but recovery takes a long time and you really really need her love patience and support no matter what mistakes you have made in the past or will make in the future, for a very long time. There is no quick fix. You also understand how hard this will be for her and can forgive her mistakes just as she needs to try to understand and forgive yours.

I am also happy for you to share this reply with her if you feel it could help.

All of our thoughts are with you and your mother.

Kim