Feeling Overwhelmed Today

[dkisopeace924]

I'm not sure what is going on with me today, but very anxious. Haven't even gotten out of bed to go to work. I'm just so fearful this morning. I believe my job is at the center of this. I'm trying to perform in a job that I no longer want to do. I think I am ready to retire from this job. The problem is I was just promoted and received a significant raise, which I need for retirement. I'm not married and will only have my money to care for myself. Very worried that I won't have enough. I don't know what to do. Is the money worth sacrficing peace of mind and happiness? This may not seem like a problem to others, but it is really worrying me. I don't know what to do. Adding to that, I have an appointment to get my port removed tomorrow. That's good news, but just thinking about the procedure is stressful. It's not a good day right now, but it has to get better. I really just want someone to say I see you, I know you are struggling and I'm here to help you through it. I feel so alone. I feel like screaming to the world for someone to please help me.

[Agora1]

I see you, I hear you dkisopeace...your brain is over wired today so no matter what

you think about, it will go into negative mode. Flip that coin over.. try looking at the

brighter side of the day. Yes, it's there all around you. Negativity will always try to

push it's way through a perfectly good day until we stand up to it. xx

[dkisopeace924 in reply to Agora1]

Thank you so much! I'm working on flipping th coin.

[Agora1 in reply to dkisopeace924]

I believe in you. I know you can do it. One small step at a

time will still get you there. xx

[frailstateofmind44]

hi there dkisopeace, I’m so sorry to hear you’re having a hard day. the worries you’ve described are all extremely valid. I see you and I’m glad you came here for support. I know how hard some days can be when the pain is so bad you really do feel like you’re just screaming for help but help doesn’t seem to be coming. It’s isolating and scary especially when you feel alone. Please know you aren’t alone and everything will be okay. Keep reminding yourself all you have to do is get through the day. I know it probably doesn’t feel like it right now, but all of this will pass eventually and your pain will start to lessen more and more over time. It’s so hard to be patient when you’re really struggling but focus on making it through one day at a time and always be gentle with yourself. It’s so important to give yourself grace because anxiety is a very real illness that can absolutely be debilitating sometimes. I’m proud of you for hanging in there as best as you can and sending you all my support xx

[dkisopeace924 in reply to frailstateofmind44]

Thank you so much for the support.

[jikreamer]

Take it one minute at a time, one hour at a time, one day at a time. And remember...you've made it through 100% of your worst days. Lord I lift this person up to you right now and thank you for giving her the peace that passes all understanding. Make yourself known to her and let her feel your calming presence. Amen.

[dkisopeace924 in reply to jikreamer]

Thank you so much for praying for me. I receive it.

[GentleAnimal]

In my opinion nothing is worth what your mental health and peace of mind is worth. I too am in a position where I am anxious and depressed because of my job and I am wondering the same thing. I love my job but I don’t like the location because I live alone and no friends or family live close. But the job is good money and I wonder if going back home and getting a job is better for me? I know if I went back home I wouldn’t be making anything near what I make now. It is a struggle but I try and make myself talk to people more and go out more to show myself that I’m not completely lonely.