Overloaded

[Aymara]

I know there are others who suffer from a lot worse, but today I feel particularly shut out from the world. I have pending work for that end of the week, a presentation for May 10th at a conference and piles of paperwork to do at school. My legs feel heavy and instead of being in front of the notebook,where I should, I'm giving classes, because it's assumed that should be done in your own time.... do normal people not know anxiety piles just like papers too.

To make matters worse, my psychiatrist is overloaded with her PhD. I'm happy for her, but it's taking her too long to send me to another doctor. And I've already returned to my risky behaviors... I'll rather use that wording than give anyone ideas.

Still,I ha e to smile brightly for my colleagues and students, lest they may call me the grumpy teacher. I need this job.

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I understand the struggle. I'm a full time college student and work part time. I have to bring about a good attitude, especially to my customers. Inside my head, though, I'm usually thinking negative thoughts. Lately, people say they've noticed me seeming down, which I have been totally unaware of recognizing that I've been showing on the outside.